Roses Diary [S.M]

Out of chances

"Okay, guys..."- I lean forward to readjust my camera. "Let's do this..." I finally found the time to record the q&a I promise to film. Yes, it's a couple of days later than the plan was to film this but yeah, I had a lot of shit to do. Amazing that Scott gave me some time off to spend it with my family but he didn't told me that he would squeeze all those appointments and obligations in my already packed agenda for the days that followed. I swear, I need to have a conversation with God to see if there is a possibility to make the days longer.

"First of all, I want to apologize for the delay. I really was excited to film this q&a but real life got in the way."- I explain as I look into the camera. At first it was so weird for me to actually have a conversation with the camera. I don't know if you have ever tried it but it's really weird at first. Now, I am just used to it. It's almost like my second nature. "But, I read your guys comments when this video was going to be uploaded and yeah, even though I only have 30 minutes to spare until Scott is going to pick me up, for something exciting I cannot tell you about."- I say with a pout. I actually really hate it to say something about projects that I am not allowed to speak about yet. I really hate it when other people mention it in their videos but I have no other option to explain that I don't have much time to film this.

Calvin Klein headquarters explicitly told Scott that I cannot speak about our collaboration yet. I am sure that I will get a penalty if I say anything about it and I don't want to know the price of those fines. So, I will make sure that I keep my mouth shut.

"Okay, let's dive into the question..."- I grab my phone and open my dm on Instagram. "A question I received a lot is if I don't work too much."- I chuckle softly and look up from my phone. "You guys are really concerned about me, that's really sweet but there is absolutely no reason to worry about me. Yes, I am really busy but I love what I do for a living. I don't really see it as work. Every morning I get up, excited about what is coming next. And that is all because of you guys!." I will never forget how thankful I am for my subscribers and followers. They are the reason for all of this.

"Okay, next is... o yeah, this one. It's from Mazeeba and the question is; how do I handle the paparazzi?."- well, that is a good question. "Honestly? I will probably never get used to them following me around. Imagine having grown up men following you around wherever you go. It can be really scary sometimes but I simply try to ignore them. If I constantly worry about if they are going to show up, I will going to drive myself crazy. Someone once told me, just don't think about them and maybe they will disappear. I can tell you that it never worked but maybe one day..."

There are so many questions and so little time. I am literally scrolling through them, trying to answer as many as possible.

"KatieShaw671 asks; what is your favorite meal to cook?... damn girl, that is a hard one..."- I honestly wouldn't know. There are so many. "I like to cook all different types of food but the one thing that comes to mind right now is lasagna but maybe that is because I made it not too long ago and it was really good... or pasta with meat sauce. That's also one of my favorites..."

I chuckle softly as 9/10 questions I see are about dating. "You guys are some little nosy mouses... no, I am not dating someone at the moment. I really try to focus on myself. You don't want to know how many questions I got about that..."

"Bella_3236 asks what I think about David Dobrik? He is single at the moment..."- I laugh out loud and shake my head. "Thanks girl for the additional information..."- she is funny. "I never heard of him though. Let me look him up on Google real quick."

"O I know who he is. He is a Youtube colleague of mine. Wasn't he the one who dated umm... what is her name again? O yeah, Liza! Yeah, I think so. Wait... he was married? O no, I don't date divorced guys. They bring trouble..." I wink at the camera, letting them know I am only joking. I do wonder why he married a 77 year old woman though. That probably one interesting story.