Roses Diary [S.M]

Blessing

"What is taking you so long?." Shawn sounds from the other side of the bathroom door as I am washing my mouth after throwing up my guts.

The sound of the door opening is heard as I drying my mouth with a towel. "Are you okay?."

"Yeah, sure? Why wouldn't I be."- if I tell him that I have been throwing up again, he is going to freak out and drive me straight to the hospital. He can be a bit over concerned sometimes. "I just needed to freshen up a bit." Thank God, I was smart enough to immediately flush the toilet so, that the smell couldn't spread through the room. Otherwise he would have know right away.

He studies me for a couple of seconds, as he tries to figure out if I am telling the truth yes or no. "We have to leave now if we want to be on time."

"Yeah, I am done."- the good thing is that I am not nauseous anymore. "Can you please grab me my black leather biker boots? They are standing next to my bed."

"Sure..." he mumbles as he keeps staring at me without moving. I slowly turn my head after 20 seconds, when he is still standing in the entrance of the bathroom.

"Is there something wrong?." Let me be the first one to say something, otherwise we are going to stand here until we are 80.

"Are you sure that you are okay?."

"Yes, Shawn."- fucking hell. Will he ever stop? If he is going to ask one more time, I am going to scream at him. "But I wouldn't be if we are going to be late. So, let's go."

"Thank you for coming with me." I say to him as we are walking through a hallway of the hospital. I reach for his hand and intertwine our fingers together. "I really appreciate it."

"Of course baby. I know how nervous you are about meeting her. There is no chance that I am going to miss this."

"That is sweet but I know how busy your schedule was today." Shawn was only supposed to drop me off at the hospital before driving to a meeting he had with Andrew and some other people. I would be lying if I say that I am not nervous about meeting Abigail. Not that I am not happy to meet her but I am more worried about her reaction when she sees me. Maybe she doesn't like me as much in real life as she likes the person I am in my videos. Not that I am a different person in my videos. Well, I at least try not to be but still, people automatically create an expectation of someone  and I just hope, that the real me is not going to disappoint her.

"Anything for you baby. You know that." And of course, Shawn being the perfect boyfriend, rescheduled his meeting to later, so that I didn't had to go alone. I have been annoyed with him for no reason at all today and then he does something like this, that makes it impossible for me to stay mad at him.

A pediatrician in a blue overall waits for us at the entrance of the department that is specialized in care for long term sick children.

"You must be Rose." An older, probably around the 50, old woman says as we are close enough to hear her. Her smile lights up the entire hallway.

"I am certainly are. Nice to meet you..."

"O sorry. My name is Marie."

"Nice to meet you, Marie." I say as I shake her hand in a greeting.

"I am..." Shawn begins but is quickly interrupted by Marie.

"Oo I know who you are. My granddaughters cannot stop listening to your songs. They will not going to believe me if I tell them I met you today."

We both chuckle in response. "Maybe we can take a picture afters so, that you can show them."

"O that would be lovely." She smiles as she opens with her card the door to the closed department. "Please, come in."