Roses Diary [S.M]

Here comes drama

Silence. Complete silence.

That was the last reaction I thought that they were going to give. I expected disbelief, disappointment, heck I even had preferred screaming over this horrible silence.

Shawn did say it, right? He didn't just said it only in my head. That would have explained their reaction though.

"How far along are you?." My mother is the first person to speak up.

Um... how far along am I? Dude, if you asked me what my name is right now, I wouldn't know.

"7 weeks and.. 5 days now." Shawn respond for me.

My mother glance quickly to Shawn before she looks back at me.

"Did you went to the doctor yet? Is it healthy?."

I nod my head slowly. "The doctor said that the baby has a strong and steady heartbeat already." I release my hand from Shawn's and reach for my phone on the table.

Maybe the audio of the baby's heartbeat will release some tension in this room.

I click on the audio and turn up the volume. The steady heartbeat of our baby echoes through the room.

I look from my mom to my dad, as I try to read their expressions but it is blank. I had expected some kind of reaction from them when they hear the heartbeat of their first grandchild.

When the audio plays for a second time, I stop it. The room is quiet again.

Well, that was that. Amazing the amount of positive responses we have got from them. It warms my heart.

I feel my cousin's hand on my knee, giving a soft squeeze. I turn my head and look at her. She stares back at me with a mixture of pity and happiness. It's a weird combination.

I give her a small smile back, until my eyes fall on Lily. Fuck. The look in her eyes is enough to tell what she is thinking. I totally ruined her birthday lunch. We should have kept our mouth shuts, at least until the end of this lunch. This was so incredibly selfish of me.

"Well, umm... let's just get back to lunch. It is Lily's day after all. Not mine." I lower my eyes and cuddle my nephew like his is my lifeline.

Well, he is. He keeps me so what sane. If it wasn't for him, I would have burst out in tears, right at this table.

"What? No. We are going to talk about this." Of course my mom cannot let this go.

"Dear, lets discuss this later..." my dad tries to jump in, knowing that my mom is probably going to be dramatic about this. In vain though. I should have known.

"Peter, we have to discuss this. They are way too young to be parents."

"They are not much younger then we were when we had Rose and I am pretty sure that they are financial way more stable than we were back then." My dad was 25 when I came and my mom was 24. Almost the same age as I am right now. Shawn is only a couple of years younger.

"How can you be so stupid, Shawn?." My head snap to Karen. Her words sound so bitter.

"What do you mean, mom?."

"You are only 22. That is not an age for a man to become a father."- I have heard about guys that became a dad way younger and they turned out fine. "I thought that you were going to be smart after the miscarriage. That was a sign that you guys aren't ready for kids yet."