Roses Diary [S.M]

Broken pieces

"Do you know who is going to be there?." I am yet again in the car, this time with Anna. I can tell you that it didn't took much to convince Anna to come to Shawn's to see his documentary. Especially not when I told her that Brian is also going be there.

"Does it really matter? Brian is going to be there so..."

"It's not like I am obsessed with Brian..."

I turn my head to her, and raise one eyebrow. Sure, girl. Sure.

"Okay, maybe obsessed but not in love."

"I don't know what is worse."

"You are not going to embarrass me, are you?." Is she really saying this to me? Girl, what?

"I am not even going to answer this question." I mumble, slightly annoyed. Why would I do that? You know what I mean? Why would I say something to her in front of the guy she likes. She is my best friend for crying out loud. I would be officially the worse best friend ever if I would do that.

It's quite for a couple of minutes. Well, considering it's LA, it can never be quite but it's quite in the car. Okay, not really because you still hear the radio but I mean, in conversation. We don't talk.

"I really like him, you know." Anna finally admits. Praise the lord. I thought that this day would never come.

"I know."- I am her best friend. If I wouldn't see something that is so obvious, I should have given my best friend batch back. "Are you going to tell him?."

"No. I don't know... it's not like he feels the same."

Now it's my time to laugh out loud. Talking about not seeing something that is sooo obvious.

"Remind me to take you tomorrow to buy some glasses."

"You think he likes me?."

"Girl, the kid is head over heels for you. How the hell do you not see that?."

"I thought that he just wad being friendly. He acts the same way with you."

"If that is the case, I am going to move. How weird would it be if Brian would hit on me? That is like against bro code." All though, I am not in a relationship with Shawn anymore, that would still be fucked up on his side. Not like Anna didn't do it with me, with my ex Seth but let's not get into that subject now. "No, Brian and I always had this brother sister relationship. The same as I have with Kenneth. The only thing is, is that Brian loves to tease someone." If Brian likes someone, if that is in a friendship or for love, he teases. It's just means that he is comfortable enough around you to be himself. So, that is a good thing, I guess.

"Do you really believe that he likes me?."

"I will keep an eye on him tonight, okay? To see how he acts around you."- Kim Possible to your service. "Promise me one thing, please please not get all weird and awkward around him." Anna always does that when she fancies a guy. She starts acting like a fucking lunatic and not in a cute way.

"I will try to suppress my inner awkwardness."

"Thank you very much." If I think she is going to succeed? No, but it's kind of funny to watch. Somewhere I hope that she will get all awkward and weird, that will take away the eyes on me and Shawn. I don't know who is going to be there, but I am sure that everyone is going to watch every interaction between us. Thank God that Scott couldn't come. I would have had an interrogation afterwards.

Shawn still owns the same house in LA as back when we were dating. I have some good memories there but also some bad ones. So as you can imagine, I have some mixed feelings as I turn the car into the familiar street, after 2 years later.