we're at my moms house because adam wanted to see hayden, josh doesn't live with my mom anymore because he's working in a publishing office. hayden is moving out very soon, my mom feels old because all of her kids have moved out and now it's hayden's turn. but we'll never forget about her, i bring the kids down whenever i can and i take them to martha's, which is nice for the kids to have them both.
last night, isabella was crying all night for hero and i was getting upset because i don't want to be doing this all week. after i called him and he spoke to belle, she was okay and fell asleep. once belle was asleep, i ended up crying myself to sleep because i felt like a shit mom that i couldn't get my daughter to sleep but then again hero puts her and camila to sleep every night.
alexa is here with oliver and her daughter scarlet, lucas is at work and it's alexa's day off so she's come to see my mom, george and her nieces and nephews. the twins are playing with oliver and scarlet - who is now two years old.
kieran is in my moms arms and she's feeding him a bottle of milk, i can tell that he's going to fall asleep.
"how's hero?" george asks me
"he's good" i take a breath in because i feel breathless
"he's in italy" i manage to say, it's becoming difficult to talk.
"jo are you ok?" i hear alexa say and i shake my head.
my chest feels heavy and i can't breathe properly, my head feels light.
"call an ambulance" i hear someone shout.
i cant die, not now.
hero's pov;
its around 11pm in italy which means it's 2pm in LA, i feel so jet lagged and i don't want to move from the hotel bed - thankfully i didn't have a catwalk today and i don't have one tomorrow, but i have a rehearsal thing and i should be asleep but i want to talk to jo and the kids. i miss them a lot already, i don't know how i'm going to go a week without them.
i close my eyes and rest my head on the pillow, i wish jo was next to me. i hear my phone ringing and turn over to the side, picking up my phone from the bedside table thing. oh it's elizabeth, i click the answer button and bring the phone to my ear.
"josephine's had a heart attack" she tells me, her voice is shaky and sounds like she's crying.
my heart drops and my body begins to shake, i can feel my eyes filling up with tears. i need to get back home, now.
"where are the kids?" i ask, my voice breaks mid sentence.
"george and hayden are at home with them, hero you need to come back"
"i'll be home tomorrow" i say and hang up the phone.
my whole body is shaking, i shove all of my things into my suitcase and then open my laptop, to look for a flight home. it doesn't take me long to find one, i found one for 3am tonight. i book the flight, i don't care if it was expensive. i need to get home to my wife, i walk around the hotel room once more to check if i have everything and then leave the hotel.
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i just got back to LA and i feel so sick, i need to see josephine. i drove to the airport so my car is here, i shove my suitcase in the boot of the car and drive straight to the hospital, elizabeth texted me the floor and room of the hospital.
i'm at the hospital now, josephine is in intensive care and she's attached to wires and tubes. i sit in the chair next to her and hold her hand in mind, why did this have to happen to her? why couldn't it be me?
when i got to the hospital, elizabeth and alexa looked so drained and it made me even more upset.
"jo please, please i need you to be strong. i know you're strong, you're the strongest woman i know. i need you, the kids need you, i can't lose you. we still have so much to do, i've been with you for most of my life. we're both thirty one now and that means i've been with you for more of my life than i haven't been with you and i don't think i can live without you, you make me strong. just like how i make you strong; we still have so much to do. i still need to take you to japan, and we're going back to the bahamas with the kids.. you said you wanted to go back right? we can go as soon as you're better" my eyes feel so sore and i don't think i can talk anymore, i bring her hand to my lips and place a kiss on her knuckle.
a doctor comes into the room to check her heart rate and how she's doing.
"husband?" the doctor asks and i nod.
"so we're going to have to take mrs fiennes tiffin into surgery since the heart attack was so severe. it's called coronary artery bypass surgery, this is to improve the blood flow in her body" the doctor tells me.
"okay and when will this surgery take place?" i question
"as soon as you sign some documents, we can take your wife into theatre"
"could i have the documents?" i ask and the doctor hands me a clipboard and a pen, i read through the papers and then sign my name on the bottom of three papers.
"we can take her into theatre in about 25 minutes" the doctor tells me before he leaves the room.
i hold josephine's hand again, this surgery needs to go well.
"i need you" i mumble as my eyes begin to fill up with tears.
