Her Wings (PSS, #2) ✔️

Chapter 65: Final Chapter

Chapter 65: A Serenade To Forever, Final Chapter.

YEARS ago, I was so scared that I might not be able to do what others can. I was so afraid that I would always be the last in line, in whatever circumstance and situation. Because I thought that whoever falls on the last is the weakest. And that thought was actually the one that made me weak. Because in the end, it doesn't really matter how far did you go when you started. It is how far could you still go without aiming other's trophies.

Lahat tayo'y may kaniya-kaniyang panahon ng pagbunga, pamumulaklak. It just takes a lot of patience, effort, determination, courage and discipline. Kung sa iniirog mo nga nag-eefort ka, para sa pangarap mo pa kaya? And it's not actually the people who's drowning you, it is your own mind, thoughts, beliefs. Pwede mo naman silang hayaan to be honest hindi ba, but because of your pride you don't let it slip and then you over think. Little by little you are drowning, let us take note that drowning is hard especially when you don't know to get yourself up. You could die.

Akala ko'y ang mga nakapaligid sa akin ang siyang nagpapabagsak sa akin, ngunit mali ako. Given na lahat ng kilos mo'y mapapansin ng lahat lalo na iyong mali, kasi nature na ng lahat iyon, human nature ika nga, natural na iyon. Ang kaso ay ako mismo ang nagkulong sa sarili kong hawla.  I was so stupid to blame the other and let myself suffocate with the bad thoughts that was actually wrong, that turned out to be wrong. Hindi lahat ng inaakala natin ay tama lalo na kung hindi ka lalabas sa iyong hawla upang alamin kung ano iyon.

I thought Leemar, the professors in the Kingdom, my family abandoned me. But they actually waited for me so that I could learn. It was just me who caged myself because of fear and overthinking. Inilipat lang ako sa aking bagong silid upang ma protektahan, hindi nila ako tinanggalan ng kalayaan. Ako mismo ang lumayo at piniling mag-isa. At dahil iyon sa takot. Fear would eat you up when everyone seemed to look down on you, good thing someone opened my closed door, my closed world. But what if that someone didn't arrived, I must've probably rotting in my own cage now.

To everyone who couldn't step out on their coons because of fear, self shaming, it's time. Don't be scared and never ask for other's abilities, other's trophies, do your own and shine. Time by time, you'll be able to do everything within your limits and beyond. I know there are people out there who are cheering for you, appreciate them and free yourself from any kinds of fears and hesitations.

Open your heart for another light and be the light those who are still living in the dark.

What's making you scared? Your fragmented wings? Your broken soul? Judgments? Critics? It's a part of life because we're breathing. Let them be and reflect to be a better person. Hindi mo pa man nabubuksan ang iyong pakpak sa ngayon, malamang ay naghahanda iyan para sa isang pangmalakasang pagbukas kung saan marami ang matutulungan, maliligtas, kung kailangan kinakailangan ng lahat.

And remember, you are always worthy. Since the day you were born, you were loved. Hindi ka bubuhayin kung hindi ka mahal. Hindi ka magiging katulad mo ngayon kung wala kang halaga. Butterflies don't actually see their wings so they don't know how beautiful they are. If you can't see how beautiful, worthy, useless, and loved you are, then find time and look for a mirror to see a person having such beautiful wings. Appreciate, just appreciate.

If you are a late bloomer, don't be sad or don't be shy. Go, learn and learn until your mind is open enough for another harder level.

I was so lucky to realize all of these.

THE night was so glorious, majestic, wonderful, everything the word beautiful could connate for. I am now wearing the crown, but I immediately stand down on the throne to level with the others. I maybe the Beryllion's queen now, but I won't let myself look higher than anyone else. Because I am still Emerald, and will always be Emerald.