The Devilman's Epiphany ✔️

XIII- Revealing secrets

I woke up at five am covered in sweat. I jumped out of bed because my nightmares did nothing but made everything worse. I slept more than I thought I would. I had to maneuver around the bed because Rex was sleeping on the ground.

The room was really cold so I touched his arm. He was freezing so I gave him my blanket before taking a shower and walking downstairs. It's his lucky day to make it outside before Rex came in and saw him. I didn't want Rex to figure out what Erik did to me before. I didn't even want to mention his name.

I walked downstairs and started to cook breakfast since Rex would be up in an hour. I wanted the awkwardness between me and Rex gone today. I didn't even know who won the fight or if my brother was still alive. I decided to take off my shirt midway cooking because it was burning me.

I made some pancakes and two omelets and right when I was about to place them on the plate I felt his scent behind me. He reached out to grab the filter coffee and I stopped him. "I made tea." He nodded coldly and sat behind the table. I put everything down and he didn't seem to want to acknowledge me. "I can eat in my room if you want," I said and he dropped his fork.

I put on my shirt again since he looked affected.

"Why would I want that?" He asked less cold this time. "My mom never wanted to eat with me. I feel weird when you act cold." I said as I took my seat.

"Your moms a dumbass." He said after grabbing his fork again. "Uh-... Were you able to watch the fight?" He nodded. "Eat." He warned and I did. "Who won?" I said when I finished the food in my mouth.

"Who do you think? Of course, he'd win, I trained him." I felt the pressure in my chest leave. I didn't want my brother to die yet. "Your mom was pissed though." He muttered like he knew I'd be upset. Little does he know, I already knew how my mother would react.

"We have a day off today." He said trying to sound bold. I narrowed my eyes. Why's he being thoughtful to me? He has no reason. "Your brothers in recovery and the monthly tests are happening for the crudes today. I fucking hate watching them so we're not going." I knew he was making excuses even though his voice was as believable as possible.

"What do we do then?" I asked and he looked deep in thought. "I don't want to hurt you either Arabella." He said after some careful thought.

My heart dropped.

"I know how surprising it sounds because I went through the same faze yesterday with you." He said after finishing the omelet.

"But we have to," I said making him look at me. He thinks I've changed my mind and honestly, I wish I have. "Next to others. Even next to Cameron. My mom will kill me and if she doesn't other people will try, although I don't think they'll succeed I don't want to deal with that." I added and he relaxed again.

"I know." He said disappointedly. "God, we're fucked." I rubbed my hands on my face and when I looked back up he was smirking.

"Might as well have fun before the hard part." I narrowed my eyes. "Your mother's existence gets me more furious as days go by and my father will try plotting shit if he knows I don't want to kill you." He said and I nodded.

"Can we just stop talking and do something?" I said and he smirked again. "What do you suggest?" I knew I didn't give him the reaction he expected by stumbling and frowning.

"Uh. Not what's on your mind." I said quickly.

"Arabella-" I cut him off by grabbing the plates. "I'll do the dishes and maybe you could pick a movie." I saw him look at me angrily.

It wasn't directed to me this time either.

"You pick the movie." He said as he pushed me out of the kitchen and started doing the dishes. I wasn't complaining though.

I picked a dumb horror movie since I was tired of skipping the romance ones. He looked satisfied with my choice as he took a seat next to me, almost touching me. I could feel my heartbeat and my face get red.

Am I sick?

I touched my forehead to see if I have a fever but I wasn't cold. "What?" He turned to look at me and I hid my face behind my hair. "Just watching the movie," I muttered.

I jumped pretty harshly this time which was impossible to not notice and it annoyed the fuck out of me.

What calmed me down was the second full-blown laugh Rex let out. "You can't even deny it anymore! That was hilarious." He said gripping his chest and I couldn't even be annoyed at him. "The fucking movie isn't even scary that's why there's a fucking jump scare every two fucking minutes!" I yelled at him when he kept laughing. That's it.

I grabbed the pillow under my head and pressed it harshly on his face hoping he'd suffocate. He managed to get the pillow out and turned me around making me pinned on the couch beneath him.

I thought I'd freak out but it just didn't happen. He didn't touch me as Erik did, he was hesitant and kept looking into my eyes for a glance of dissatisfaction. But it was never there. "This is weird," I said to make him back off. He shook his head letting me know he's comfortable as long as I am. I didn't want him to move an inch far away from me. "You remember the day at the club when I had meetings." I hummed because I was incapable of making up sentences.

"You weren't really nice to me that day. Although, I liked it very much it hurt like a bitch afterward." I widened my eyes knowing what he was talking about. If it was anyone I would've started yelling already but I wanted to see where this was going because it was Rex. It wasn't just anyone.

"Hmm." He got closer and I looked up feeling too hot from his burning gaze. He slid backward on the couch which made me widen my eyes and my head shot up to get a good look at what he's trying to do. He just smiled sweetly and kissed under my belly button. The kissing continued till he reached my cleavage. "Rex, what the fuck are you doing?" I said out of breath. "I can't fucking help it." He said frustratedly and leaned back, making me feel empty again. I didn't want him to stop much less move away.

"Arabella just fucking tell me what happened." He looked like he was about to lose it and so was I. Rex wouldn't tell anyone. I can't keep it in anymore... I don't want to. I won't tell him everything but I'll tell him about Erik.

"Every time I-... showed some type of emotion that makes a person weak, my mom would lock me in this room. When I was small I found ways to escape and ran away to my dad before the punishing time was over. She didn't notice but one day the guards caught me sneaking out." I sighed and he turned his body to look at me more carefully.

"A big thing happened in that room when I was about eleven but that's not what this is about. Right after that, she got herself a boyfriend who she would just fuck from time to time. But the boyfriend was more interested in other things than my mom. My mom started to tie me up before she locked me in because she found out I've been leaving and then he started coming in. When I was tied up. I couldn't move to defend myself and now every time I see him..."

"I feel tied up." I felt my throat close in the last part.

"It got terrible one day and I was just... broken. Completely shattered. That's when I changed as a person completely. I didn't get out of my mother's way so I wouldn't end up back there again. He still tried to get to me but never really succeed because I made sure there were at least two people around me."

"Till yesterday." I had to whisper because my voice wouldn't go higher than that. "He got to me alone in the kitchen and if you didn't come in..." I stopped myself and finally looked up at him.

He looked angry.. no... furious but also sad? I don't know what that look meant. I didn't worry about crying because I didn't feel that urge in me anymore. I rested my head on his shoulder to breathe him in. Nothing but physical pain has calmed me down before... before this moment.

"I'm not going to kill him." He said in an octave I've never heard him speak before. It startled me. Made me get goosebumps. "I'm going to hurt him in every little fucking way and make him pray for your mercy, Arabella." He rested the side of his face on top of my head and twisted my hair in his hand.

I think I just spoke to the devilman for the first time.

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