The Devilman's Epiphany ✔️

XLI- I feel stupid now

I had my normal expression on my face and the guy I was dancing with was trying to start conversation.

He's good looking and I'm a single woman.

"Are you with anyone?" He said as I looked at him carelessly. "Are you asking about a friend or a significant other? Because I can't really keep either in my life." I smiled and he chuckled before leaning too close. He had to let me go and I took a deep breath before letting him hold me. I rested one of my hands in his shoulder and looked at him challengingly. He had the same look on his face which made me want to slap it off.

I moved my head to the side so he could get a good of my neck and heard him inhale deeply. "How's being homeless?" He crooked his head to the side. "Better than being stuck with your fake ass." I replied with a smile and his lips twitched up. Why is that funny to him? "Hm. You couldn't keep me so you're going for my cousin now? That's flattering." I smirked at him and realised he's trying to be more intimate with the dance. Then so be it. I moved next to him sensually and he didn't take it for granted.

"I never went for Carmelo. He seems to really enjoy being around me." I teased. What am I doing? "Yeah? And why is that?" He asked challengingly and I smirked. "I think you know the answer." I leaned to his ear and whispered before the song ended and people walked off together. I looked at him with a smirk one last time before walking to Carmelo. "I've never met a bigger douche in my life than myself but this man fucking pushes me every day." I said sounding snarky and Carmelo laughed.

"I'd say I'm glad I don't carry those genes but at the end he got you, didn't he?" I clenched my teeth and then sighed. I wanted to take my anger out with someone. I wanted to kiss Carmelo, maybe even fuck him but something is holding me back and it pisses me the fuck off. "I really wanted you." I narrowed my eyes as he took a big sip of his drink and looked up. "I tried talking to you even when we were kids and then I came here. I didn't even know you worked with Rex. I just thought I finally had a chance. But I should've known. Rex always get's what he wants with ease, doesn't he?" He looked at me bitterly and I pursed my lips together. He liked me? Genuinely.

"I uh..." I stumbled. "It's not because I didn't want to talk to people. My mom wouldn't even let me have friends."I replied and he nodded. "I guessed." I could feel the tension we both radiated and it made me really uncomfortable. I looked at Rex and he had the biggest frown. Why does he not want me if he's this jealous? I know he's not a coward so what's holding him back? I had the same look as him when the girl leaned onto him. Why isn't he pushing her back if he wants me? I leaned onto the table and shut my eyes from anger. It doesn't matter if he doesn't come back.

I'm not waiting for him.

I know I'm a prize and if he's too stupid to realise he can have left overs.

But I know other men know that as well.

I grabbed Carmelo's hand that was resting on the table and pushed it away so I could move up to him. I grabbed his neck with one hand and pulled him to me before his hands found my waist. I kissed him with anger. Letting him know my world is slowly crumbling down but I'm too stubborn to give up. He kissed me back with frustration and moved my head with his hand so he could get a better position.

Last thing I remember happening is the loud bang of the front door as Rex left without the girl.

I was biting off the skin next to my nails as I paced around the room I was staying in. My brain was about to overdrive because nothing about this situation made sense. Rex just drops me out of nowhere. At first I believed him because of my both mommy and daddy issues. But now I see how stupid the situation is. I know he loves me. I can't believe myself for actually thinking what he said was right.

Okay maybe the jealousy temper tantrum helped me realise he actually loves me.

Why would he just leave me then? I should think of what happened that day.

At the morning everything was fine, he was being really caring then Cameron and Will came. He even showed me off at the warehouse. Then he...

He talked to Leonardo.

Than started treating me like shit.

I feel stupid now. So so fucking stupid.

I ran downstairs to Will and Cameron and instantly regretted it. "What?! Oh my fucking god!" I ran back upstairs in lightning speed and heard Cameron's hyena sound like laugh. I rested my face in my hands.

I can't do this today.

They were almost bon-...

I shook my head and got up from the floor. I'm being childish. "Arabella, you can come now!" I heard Will yell and ran again. "You're a piece of shit." I grabbed the controller and threw it at Cameron with force. He yelled as it hit his stomach and grabbed the spot where I hit him. "What did I do?! This is why I don't like dating women." He said as he clenched his teeth and I almost laughed.

"You look like a lunatic. What happened?" William said calmly. He's used to my aggression. "You think I'm stupid? I mean it did take me a while to realise." Cameron's face paled as he looked at me. "What?" I laughed and sat next to William before getting back up. "God only knows what happened there." I muttered and William laughed. "The blue eyed big mac shaped like bitch told him to drop me." I said mentioning Leonardo out of breath and Cameron got up. He stood behind the couch. "I swear I didn't want him to do it. There was no choice but to get rid of you Arabella!" He said as I grabbed the controller again from the floor.

I shook it as I spoke. "He could've fucking told me. We could've planned it. Why am I surrounded by fucking idiots?" I pushed my hair back. I should really shower today. "Then what? Let Leonardo find out? He told Rex he's going to kill you." I understand why he just decided to drop me instead of telling me. He didn't want to take chances but ended up breaking me. "Whatever. I'm just happy now." I said and Cameron grinned. "What?" He shrugged.

"I talked to him this morning. He's absolutely pissed. Taking it out of everyone because you kissed Carmelo. He would've beat him up but then again, Leonardo would find out. So now he's a bitch to everyone." Oh. I forgot about that. Whatever, he sort of deserves it by letting other woman cling on him when I'm hurting. I shrugged and rubbed my face.

"What now? Do I just pretend I don't know?" I said and Cameron smirked. "Do as you like. Just act like you hate him in front of everyone which is proven to be something you definitely suck at." He mentioned and I nodded. "What's a good excuse to go to the warehouse?" I asked and Cameron looked at the wall to think. "I honestly don't know." An idea popped in my head.

"What if I just tell him I want the crudes back? Then we'll argue about it in front of everyone." Then he'll take me to his office and I'll break him twice as hard as he broke me.

"That's really smart. You can come with me today but I'm pretty sure he's mad at you, genuinely." I rolled my eyes and shrugged. "That helps my case." I replied and William was more confused than ever. "Don't worry about it. Cameron will explain it to you." I smiled at Cameron and he looked at me angrily. "Why me?" He protested and I frowned again. "Because I fucking said so. You owe me." I pointed at him and walked upstairs.

Now, let me get ready to see Rex.

It's time for me to fuck him up.

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