The Devilman's Epiphany ✔️

XVII- I did as my body led me

"What did I do?" I asked as my heart started pounding. The looked so, intense. It makes me want to grab him by the hair and pull him to me.

Then never let go.

"Nothing." He narrowed his eyes. "What's the problem then?" I asked out of breath. "That's exactly the problem. You do nothing every time I want you to do something. Every time I'm ready... For you to do something. What are you so scared of, Arabella?" His words were cutting me like they were made of sharp blades. "I-..." I held on to my necklace which he definitely noticed. "I don't want you to die and I don't want to die either." I said and he rolled his eyes. He thought he could control everything. He can't control me around my mom because that's not me anymore.

That's everything I'm afraid I'll become eventually.

"I wanted to have a father. He got killed because I really wanted to have him in my life." I said trying my best to not let my voice crack and it was very audibly noticeable. "And then I wanted a brother. I didn't even realise till now. I didn't know why I saved him, I thought it was just because he didn't deserve to die but no. I wanted to love him as a brother and I had to fucking kill him today." I looked at him angrily with tears dropping from my eyes. The look on his eyes were back. The look he had after I told him about Eric.

"Arabella I don't know how many times I fucking repeated myself to you after telling you I hate doing that. Nobody is going to fucking kill me. Not your mother, not you and not my dumbass father, no one." He looked at me furiously and I tried backing up. "And you know what? You know why you'll never die as well?" I shook my head trying to stay calm. He looked like he could just kill me with that look. That's why he's called the devilman after all. "Because they have to fucking go through me first." He pointed at me and tapped my chest as I lost my breath.

"Rex." I hummed and he kept staring at me. I felt like my chest was about to explode if I didn't do anything.

He made himself very clear.

I don't know why it never clicked before. Maybe it was because he never sounded this serious as he explained himself. But I knew now he meant every word he said and there's nothing stopping me anymore. I can't stop myself anymore.

"Kiss me." I looked up at him with the same expression he had now. Frustrated and angry. I was angry at myself for pushing him away this much that he had to go insane to tell me what I already knew. No one can kill Rex Rosetti.

He gripped the back of my neck and didn't pull me towards him like I expected. He leaned onto me and aggressively put his mouth onto mine. I had this hunger inside for Rex that I wasn't even aware of till he kissed me. I tasted the anger, hunger and the cigarette he lit up after I told him goodnight.

He moved my head to the side to deepen the kiss. I don't think I need to mention that I've never been kissed like this before much less made out with anyone. I finally moved away from the desk and held the side of his face. Feeling the small hairs that grew on his cheek because he didn't shave today. He gripped my waist with the other hand which made me gasp into his mouth silently. He just snapped like that and laid on the bed right before pulling me on top. I started kissing his cheek and then down to his neck when I had to pull away to breathe. He let out a dark groan when I slid my hands up inside his shirt. "You're so fucking good at this shit." I didn't expect him to say that since I had no real experience.

I did as my body led me.

I wanted to kiss down his tattoos on his chest and show his nipple piercings extra attention but not now. Now's not the time. He turned us around, rested himself in between my legs and found my lips again. "I want to kiss every inch of you." He said as he stopped and looked into my eyes.

He read my mind.

I sighed tiredly before leaning my head on my pillow. "We're in deep shit." I said before he laid on me. He kept his weight off so I wouldn't suffocate. "Fucking finally." He said before looking at me. The anger was gone and he looked at me with admiration.

No ones every looked at me that way before and It didn't scare me anymore when he did.

"I like your hair." He said as he twisted some of it. "I've noticed." He always liked to play with it when he was close. He moved to the side and laid on his back before pulling me on top again. I laid my head on his chest. "You sleep on your fucking back?" I asked and saw a little smile on his face. "You really are a psychopath." I said and put my hand on his chest before slowly falling asleep.

Rex really liked to be touchy with me and I enjoyed every second of it. It's almost like he thought I'd slip away any second but I know he wouldn't let that.

So much for hating him, look where that got me now.

"Did you know what happened yesterday?" I asked as he rested his hand on my thigh, squeezing it gently and driving me crazy. "You had your phone with you." He admitted and I nodded. That's why he didn't question me, makes sense.

I've started training the new group when we reached the warehouse and was almost finished when I heard someone yell my name. I walked to the side of the rink and jumped down. "What?" I snapped because I wanted to finish the training. "Uh. Mr.Rosetti is expecting you." Rex wants to see me? Now? "Alright." I muttered. "Ten minute break!" I yelled at the girls this time. They were even more annoying then boys. I knocked before entering and saw Rex on his desk looking at some papers tiredly. He rolled the chair back when he saw me. I locked the door and walked up to him before he pulled me to his lap.

I still wasn't used to him being this way because my happiness usually never lasted long. I rested my head on top of his as he breathed me in. "Mr. Nakamura's dead." He sighed and looked up at me. Cassandra's father who went after my dad. That explains why she looked so... lifeless today. I wasn't making it easy for her either. "I knew he would die." I pushed his hair back and played with it softly making him close his eyes. "I also have a mission today. Aiden's going to take you home, Cameron is also coming with me." I narrowed my eyes. "Why can't I come?" I asked. It's not like I had the energy.

"Because I don't want you to. I want you to go to the house and fucking sleep. I don't think it's unattractive or anything but the purple under your eyes are hard to not notice and you look like you could fall asleep right now." He was right. I usually wake up in the middle of night because of nightmares and yesterday was the best sleep I've ever gotten in years. "Okay. Don't get killed or kidnapped." He laughed silently and I actually genuinely smiled for the first time. "I like your smile a lot. I just noticed." He was leaning to my face trying to be sneaky but I ruined everything with getting up.

"I have crudes to train. You need to come back safely to get what you want, sorry." I fake pouted and he rolled his eyes before smirking and nodded. I left his office and went back to the rink which I cannot seem to leave. I had to do something before I began though. "Cassandra come here." I said aggressively and made some of the girls flinch because they didn't see me coming. She followed behind me to the changing rooms. I locked the door behind us.

"I'm sorry." I held her hand and squeezed it. She stumbled when she saw the change in my expression and broke down.

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