The Devilman's Epiphany ✔️

LXXXI- Let me have this

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My mouth was dry, I was hungry and I didn't get many sleep because I don't like to be in the dark.

It makes me anxious.

But the worst part of all this is that I had to fucking pee.

My bladder was about to give up on me.

I blinked up to stay awake but I could slowly feel myself getting closer to unconsciousness. I threw my head back and fell asleep.

Next time I woke up I felt someone move my legs repeatedly and blinked down at them. "What?" I asked, my voice deep and throaty since I didn't drink any water.

"You're a piece of work, Arabella. Sneaking in to kill Rex." Cameron rolled his eyes as he untied me and I blinked away from him. I knew Harvey won't be disappointed since killing the Rex Rosetti isn't something you can achieve in two hours or less.

I closed my eyes and thought of yesterday.

Kissing him was not in my plans at all.

I don't know what came over me.

I sighed and Cameron dragged the belt away from my hands. I stretched as I got up and rubbed my sore neck. "I'm just gonna' grab medicine." I said pointing at the room and Cameron raised an eyebrow.

"And I'll be following you. Is it for your cheek? You should really change your makeup routine by the way, purple blush doesn't suit you." I narrowed my eyes and walked to the bathroom in a hurry.

He was right. Black and blue blush definitely wasn't for me. I widened my eyes as I inspected it. Rex definitely was an asshole by not giving me any ice but I did just try to kill him moments before I received this.

I rolled my eyes before walking out and Cameron started following me again. There was a woman this time who worked here.

Kelly to my luck was there with the doctor and they were talking more than working. "Why are you here? Tripped on air?" I asked her and Cameron bit his lip before looking away.

He coughed and turned to look at me again. "She tripped on wires." Me and Cameron shared a look and I could tell I was breaking the ice. "We should hang out more." I said softly and rubbed my sore wrists.

He sighed and crossed his arms as the lady handed me ice. "We can if you stop trying to kill my brother." I nodded and looked at Kelly.

She had a ring as well.

I couldn't help but let out a snarky smirk. "It's okay to be envious, Arabella. You should just try learning to grow out of it." Kelly said and made the doctor snicker. "Oh, I wouldn't start with her." Cameron warned Kelly and my smirk didn't drop. If anything it widened.

"It's okay Cameron, she just doesn't know how her fiancé tongue fucked me yesterday." Cameron sprayed out some of the water he was drinking and started choking in the corner.

He kind of looked like how my cat threw up every once a while.

I didn't realise that Kelly stood up and was in front of me. She slapped me across the face, making my head move to the side. Not because she hits hard but it's because I wasn't expecting it.

"Slap hard next time, it's what I'm used to." I said as I looked at her and she let out a breath. "You're fucking crazy." I rolled my eyes as I clenched my hand around the ice. "I just like the pain." I was wondering how she still kept speaking to me.

She must be that stupid.

"Kelly." This time the warning wasn't from Cameron. It was from Rex himself. "Yes, baby?" I narrowed my eyes as I cringed and looked at Cameron again. He had a look similar to mine as he walked over to my side. "Don't fucking call me that. What are you doing here?" I got up from my seat and walked over to him.

"I was wondering if we can finish off what we started yesterday." I said as I looked into his eyes. He let out a tired breath like it hurt to look at me. That made me loose whatever breath I had and I took a step back from him which he noticed and narrowed his eyes at.

I can't feel, I need to kill him.

My phone buzzed which cut the tension. Rex seemed curious about the caller. "Yes?" I spoke breathlessly and looked at the ground. "Where the fuck are you? We've been searching for you all day, Arabella. Harvey's biting my head off thinking Rex did something to you." I cleared my throat to sound more serious and pushed my hair back.

"I'll be there. I'm okay." I said before hanging up on him and walked past Rex. I can't look at him. He's so close to me but I can't reach out to him like how I used to. He wouldn't let me anyway.

I walked faster and my arm was grasped before I got pulled back and slammed into a wall.

"Who the fuck is Elias, Arabella. Who is he to you?" Rex wasn't playful anymore, his looks were fatal. "Wouldn't you like to know?" I said before trying to push him off but he glued his chest to mine and shut my mouth with his hand. "Alright then. I'll go and kill him right now. I made quite the friends when you left, to go search for you. I'm sure they wouldn't mind helping me out to kill Harvey and Elias. They'd be thrilled actually now that I think about it." I shook my head aggressively and tried to push him off of me.

I bit his hand and he finally let go. "No! I swear to fucking god, Rex. I'll do anything to take everything you have. Just let me have this. Let me have Harvey and Elias." I told him and he narrowed his eyes again as he looked away then turned to me with a death glare.

"Why?!" He yelled at my face. I leaned my head back and clenched my eyes shut. "Why do you care?" A tear left my eye. I don't like Rex yelling at me. I don't like Rex caring about me. I understand the harassing situation because he used to care and he knows I have trauma but this is too much.

Too much for my heart.

"You fucking know why I care. I've always cared." He said venom dropping from his voice and I looked at him again. "Don't." I warned, now all my tears dropping.

I've dreamt of this every since finding out he didn't do anything and I'm just a dumb piece of shit. "You don't care about anyone else. You wouldn't search for Kelly if she went missing." He nodded admitting it as he kept staring at me. He didn't look away anymore, not once. "I'm trying to kill you." I said using my last excuse to make him yell at me again.

To make him fight me, insult me and break me but he's not taking any of it. He knows what I'm trying to do because at first I tried to do this to make him physically hurt me.

But he just hugged me and now he's warming my heart, making me feel again.

I shouldn't feel for him again but it's impossible for me to not to. I can't choose to not feel when it comes to him but if it's about anyone else it works perfectly.

"You can't kill me, Arabella." He said rather softly this time, being gentle with me for some reason. I know he knows that I'm coming back.

He knows I'm fighting against it and he's doing anything to make me lose by just staring at me like that.

Didn't I want him back a month ago?

But Harvey wants me to kill him. Harvey loves me unconditionally and so does Elias even though he hasn't said it yet. I can feel it through them and that's everything I've ever wanted, growing up.

In the end I know everything means nothing without Rex.

So I have to just get rid of him as quickly as possible.