I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

77 ~ Compromises

Midoriya's POV

"-on't know What I Should Do!" Todoroki was yelling for some reason and it woke me up. I realized soon after, he was broken down into a mess of tears. "Todo? What wrong?" I asked, especially worried because I had never seen him cry like this before. He shook his head as he continued crying into my chest, pulling us as close as humanly possible. My heart broke as I felt his shoulders shaking viciously and the slight wetness on my chest. 'He must have been crying for a good few minutes now.' I thought, my heart only shattering further that that realization.

"Okay. Just come here. It's okay. I'm right here, Todo. You gotta breathe, okay?" I spoke as gently as I could. Not exactly knowing how to proceed, I hugged him close, putting one hand in his hair and the other on his back. I started petting his silky hair, knowing from early this week that he was very fond of the action. A broken hiccup pushed it's way out of his chest and I started gently rubbing and patting his back.

"Oh, Mic. Hi." I said, only noticing the blonde as my mind cleared from sleep. "Hello, little listener." Mic greeted back, a small, almost sad smile gracing his lips. "Is Aizawa up too?" I asked, continuing the gentle touches I gave Todoroki, is sobbing slowing down to choked sniffles as a slow stream of tears. "He wasn't when I got up." I nodded to the blonde's response, feeling the death grip on the back of my hoodie loosening up considerably. I looked down to Todoroki's once tensed face. It was relaxed into a small frown as he eyes still spilt tears as a slow pace. I couldn't help wanting to chuckle at his runny nose, but kept my composer, not wanting to wake Todoroki up.

"Why was Todo crying so hard? He looks so upset, even in his sleep." I asked, feeling a pang of guilt ring through me. "I asked him how he was feeling and the bottle he was storing his emotions in broke." Mic explained in a very short way. I once again nodded, knowing I was probably stressing him out. I held the hand on his back still as I continued to play with his hair. I watched as Todoroki's nose crinkled up, pulling me close again. I smiled a bit, giving him a small kiss on his forehead. Mic smiled as he watched us cuddle. "I'll let you two sleep. I'm going to go whip up something for dinner. Come eat when he wakes up." Mic said, patting my leg gently before getting up. As the gentle closing of the door stopped, I looked down at the red and white hair just under my chin.

I ran my fingers through Todoroki's hair, gently unknotting whatever my fingers got caught on. I could feel his strong heartbeat on the hand that rested on his back and it was oddly comforting. I leaned my head down, my nose buried into his hair. I cringed a bit, the smell of a hospital lingering on him. "You smell like a hospital." I muttered into his hair before realizing, I probably wasn't any better. 'Oh god. I haven't showered in three days.' I winced at the thought, knowing that the amount of sweating I had done, mixed with the smell of the river and a hospital, was probably literally disgusting.

'Yep. Showering tonight.' I thought, my fingers getting stuck on a snarl in the red half of Todoroki's hair. I gently spread apart the knot, smoothing out his hair. I found myself smiling gently as Todoroki nuzzled his head into my chest some more. It made me feel special knowing that even in his sleep, he's always trying to get closer. Hand holding and hugging was super common with Todoroki. He was so touched deprived it me made me kind of sad. He always hesitates to reach for my hand or flinch when I grabbed his without warning.

'I can't blame him though, knowing what his childhood was like.' I thought, using my legs to hug his. I closed my eyes, trying to memorize the feeling of having him in my arms. This moment was precious to me. Having the boy I had been crushing on since the Stain Incident, being my boyfriend and in sleeping in my arms, felt like a dream. A really, really good one. I untangled another part of Todoroki's hair as I continued to play with his hair. I planted a small kiss on his forehead before leaning back a bit to look at his face.

Todoroki's eyelashes were long and, if you look closely, a few were red and white; they matched his hair. His eyelids fluttered as he slept. Despite what he says, his scar makes him look so unique and beautiful. It really made his mismatched eyes shine in the best way possible. My eyes travel down to his lips. They looked as soft as they felt. The gentle, natural pink contrasted to his pale face in a way that made them look delicate and kissable. I swiped my tongue over my bottom lip, wanting to steal a kiss from those beautiful lips.

I looked away with a blush, as I realized what I was thinking. I starting moving my hand in his hair again, realizing that I had stopped while admiring his face. 'I would've died of embarrassment if he had woken up in that moment, I know it for sure!' I thought, my heart racing at the thought of how it would have turned out if he had. None the less, I was still embarrassed about even thinking about kissing him while he was sleeping.

'Even so, he really is quite the looker. No wonder everyone falls head over heels for him.' I thought, feeling a small bit of jealousy invade my heart. "Hey. You know how you claimed me as yours?" I whispered aloud, even though I knew was listening. "Well, that goes for me too. You're mine." I continued, feeling my chest fill with butterflies as I actually said it. I smiled, hugging Todoroki closer out of pure happiness.

I heard a knock on my door before it cracked open. "Oh, hey Aizawa, come on in." I greeted from my spot on the bed. "Dinner's ready. Wake him up and come eat." Aizawa said, closing the door after he walked out. I didn't want to wake Todoroki up, but he needs to eat.

"Todo. Come on. You gotta eat." I mumbled, not loud or quiet. When I got no response, I slightly shook him and tried again. "Five more minutes." Todoroki mumbled, curling into my chest. "No, you need to eat." I said, trying to pry him off me. "Nooo!" Todoroki whined like a child, clinging onto me more. I kept trying to worm my way out of his grip, but it was iron clad and I wasn't making any progress. I sighed and stopped trying, returning to hugging him until I got an idea. "If you get up right now, I'll give you a kiss." I suggested, knowing he liked kisses just as much as I did. "On the lips?" Todoroki asked, probably trying to avoid a trick like the one I pulled at the apartment. "Yes, but you have to get up fir-"

My sentence was cut off by Todoroki rolling us both out of bed and pulling us up in one smooth motion. "Can I have my kiss now?" Todoroki asked, looking like a little puppy waiting to be pet. I laughed at the thought of him pouting at me like a puppy before stepping just a bit closer to him and placing a small kiss on his lips. As I pulled away, Todoroki followed, slowly kissing me back. I sighed as I relaxed a bit, feeling all the love he had flowing into me through the kiss. "I- love you- too- but- you-" I tried talking, but Todoroki kept giving me small pecks on the lips. "Stop." I laughed, placing my hands on his bare chest. "Put a shirt on so we can go down stairs; you need to eat." I chuckled, staying in the hug that Todoroki had held us in.

"Only if you eat too." Todoroki replied, pulling back and holding my hands. "Of course." I smiled in response. Even though I didn't feel like eating, I knew I had to. He grabbed his long sleeved shirt and pulled it on before walking back to me and grabbing my hand. We walked out of my room and down the stairs with our hands still locked together. I didn't feel as lonely like this; it makes me so happy I have him.

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