I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

4 ~ Some One... Cares?

Todoroki's POV

"Why did you do it?" Midoriya asked, emphasizing the word "you". I put may hands back down, not sure how to respond. I saw Midoriya panic a bit before he spoke again. "Never mind, you don't have to answer that, but we're not going running anymore, are we?" He asked, turning to his left.

I looked to where he was looking. In red, his clock shown, 5:48. "If we go, it will have to be short, otherwise, no." I said, looking back at him, as if asking him what he wanted to do.

Midoriya put his fists onto his hips, biting the inside of his bottom lip lightly. 'Cute.' I thought, watching as his face scrunched up a little while he thought. "Nah, let's not. Let's change and go get breakfast before school. We could always go tomorrow." Midoriya said relaxing his hands down to his sides.

"Sure. See you in a bit." I replied, shrugging my shoulders. We walked to the door, Midoriya opening it for me. There was a bit of light coming through the windows, indicating that most people would be getting up soon. Just before I said my good byes, I looked back at Midoriya, who was standing in the doorway. "You can trust me, okay? I won't tell anyone, but I won't just let you continue cutting, okay?" I reassured him, putting my hands in my pockets. Midoriya looked surprised, before he sighed, looking away from me.

"Whatever, it's not like you actually care anyway." I barely heard it, but I did, and to be honest, it made me kind of mad. I raised one of my eyebrows. "Excuse me, What? You think I don't care?" I rhetorically asked, stepping back into his room, closing the door behind me. 'Midoriya looks a bit surprised.' I thought, before shutting out my thoughts.

The closer I got to Midoriya, the further he backed up. His back was now up against the wall and he looked quite terrified. I was thoroughly upset. "You honestly think I don't care?" I asked again, putting my hand on the wall next to his head, feeling my eyes sting with tears. Midoriya didn't respond, just on kept staring at me. I was so frustrated by what he said, I hadn't noticed the panic filling his features. His hands were shaking and his eyes were glossed over with tears. 'D-did I cause him to panic?' I thought, suddenly regretting pinning him to the wall. The tears I was holding in, came spilling out in an instant.

Midoriya's POV

Todoroki had pinned me up to my wall and to be honest, it scared me, a lot. I didn't think he'd hear me, and I definitely didn't expect him to react so poorly if he did. Todoroki looked so upset with me. For once, his eyes scared me even more than Kacchan's. Normally, his mismatched eyes calmed me with just one glance.

I felt as if I was a mere step from a panic attack. I watched as Todoroki said something, but I couldn't understand it, it was all mumbled together. All I could hear was my quick heart beat and a high pitched ringing in my ears. I couldn't hear, much less breathe or move. I felt like I was under water, unable to swim back up. I was absolutely terrified.

I felt my breath hitch when I saw tears brimming in Todoroki's eyes. 'I-I made Todo cry.' I thought, only making my panicking worse. My heart fell to my stomach and my wrists were pretty much crying to be cut. Out of no where, Todoroki looked up and down me. Almost instantly, his features softened and his eyes calmed me, like they would've any other time.

That is, until the tears that were once being held back, were released like an over flowing sink. I felt horrible for it. I reached forward without a thought and wiped some of the tears from his face. I never once broke eye contact with him once it was made. Todoroki's eyes immediately soothing all the fear I was previously feeling.

"Sorry." Todoroki mumbled, letting his head fall onto my shoulder, wrapping his arms around my waist, hugging me once again. Without even realizing, I had completely calmed down. I reached my hand up to his hair, stroking it softly. "For what? You calmed me down so quickly, I didn't even notice it happening." I said calmly, hugging him back gently.

"But I'm also the one that made you panic in the first place." Todoroki mumbled so quietly, I almost missed it. "Haha, sadly, I can't argue with that, but I don't blame you. Not in the slightest." I giggled a bit, inhaling his scent. He lifted his head from my shoulder, looking at me.

"This is all backwards, you were the one almost having a panic attack, and here we are, you comforting me." Todoroki said, a soft expression on his face, replacing his normal stoic one. 'He actually cares? Someone... cares? Yeah right, what a bunch of bull.' I thought, sighing. "Stop. Go get ready for school. I'll be down stairs for breakfast in a little while." I said, turning him and pushing him out the door.

"Wait!" Todoroki said, turning his head towards me. "What?" I asked stopping. "Are you sure you're okay?" He asked, turning and facing me. 'Tell him the truth.' "Yeah, I feel a lot better now." I said, smiling as convincingly as possible. "Now go on." I said, shoving him the rest of the way out of the door, closing it before he could say anything else.

'Liar.' I sighed, leaning up against the door and slowly sliding down it. 'He calmed me in a matter of seconds, how bizarre.' I thought, looking at my hand. I went into my bathroom, my eyes going straight to the razor. I hated my self for making the so called "emotionless kid" cry.

I went to my sink, opening the second drawer from the top. Reaching all the way to the back, finding a small, green box of razors and taking a new one out. I slid my grey hoodie over and off my head, throwing it to the side.

I sat on the toilet seat, placing the razor to my right arm. I pushed down and pulled it along my skin. It stung, but that says I'm still alive. 'Not too many.' I thought, putting three more cuts on my wrist before moving onto my left. I put four there as well before washing it off and bandaging them carefully.

I turned to the bathroom door, where my uniform was hanging and got dressed and ready for the long day of school. I walked down stairs avoiding all the people I'd meet if I used the elevator. Todoroki was looking right at me from the table where he was eating and I knew it, I just ignored it. Uraraka came up to me, smiling as bright as always and started talking to me.

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