I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

2 ~ Todoroki?

Midoriya's POV

A little while after Aizawa left, I realized how gross I smelt and felt. My clothes were still soaked in sweat and what is most uncomfortable is my black, long sleeved shirt stuck to me. I decided that a shower would be good. I grabbed a nice, clean, pair of clothes and walked into my bathroom. I turned on the water, waiting for it to warm up while I got undressed.

I peeled my shirt off my body and stood in front of the mirror, seeing every scar on my torso and all the cuts on my arms. "When did I get so many? Did I really do that?" I murmured to myself, gently running my fingers across the cuts, new and old. My ribs and hip bones were still noticeable and I hated it.

I sighed, looking away from the mirror. 'Maybe it'd be better if I just died.' Just as I thought that, I could feel my eyes grow huge. I quickly shut them and shook my head. 'No, the funeral would be a burden and I'm already enough of one. Plus, what would Kacchan say? No, I don't want to think about that.' I opened my eyes about halfway and continued undressing.

I had a hard time taking off my sweats, as they stuck to my thighs. I finished undressing and stepped into the shower. The warm water hit my back and I could feel all the stress and tension run off with it. I grabbed my shampoo, quickly and thoroughly scrubbing my scalp, making my curly, green hair messier than what it already was.

I finished cleaning off all the sweat on my body with my watermelon scented body wash and a washcloth. As I stepped out, I was careful not to slip and fall while I walked over and grabbed my towel. I dried off and as I was grabbing my clothes from the counter, I refused to look at the mirror. I didn't want to see that again. I got changed into my solid grey t-shirt and a pair of black shorts with green strips on the sides.

I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the bed, beginning to dry my hair. I looked at the clock as I was rubbing the towel on my wet hair. 'Wait, Really? It's only 4:30?!' The red numbers on the clock changed and I realized, 'I am still sitting in a dark room.'

I flopped my, now wet, towel onto the back of my neck and walked over to the light switch. I flipped it on and walked back into my bathroom. I slid the towel off me and folded it it half, putting it on the pole to dry.

As I turned around to leave the bathroom, my eyes caught the sight of a razor I had thrown away a few days ago. My wrists pulsated and just as I was about to reach for it, I heard on knock on my door. I flinched, quickly turning around and walking straight out of the bathroom, to the door.

I cracked it open, and due to the dark hall, I couldn't see who it was. I opened the door a bit wider, using the light of my room to light the hallway, and I saw Todoroki standing there, in what looked like running clothes.

"O-Oh! T-Todoroki! What are you doing up so early in the morning?" I asked a bit loud caused by my surprise. "Shh, like you said, it still very early." Todoroki whispered, putting his finger to his lips. "O-Oh." I mumbled quietly, into my hands, that were now covering my mouth.

"Can I come in real quick?" Todoroki whisper-asked and I noticed him glancing up and down. I had completely forgotten that we were standing at my dorm doorway. "S-Sure." I replied quietly, stepping to the side letting him in and the half n' half teen didn't hesitate to walk in.

"So?" I asked, putting on another fake smile. Todoroki looked at me, no emotion what-so-ever. "So what?" Todoroki asked, looking at me blankly as he tilted his head to the side a bit. "So? What are you doing up at this hour?" I re-asked the question from before. "Oh. I'm always up at this time, I like to go running while it's... still cool outside, so when I saw you're light on, I thought maybe you like to join me." Todoroki explained, his words catching and slowing down at 'still cool outside'. Todoroki's eyes weren't on my face anymore though, they were looking directly at my bare arms.

'Oh no! No, no, no. I'm so Stupid!' I mentally screamed at myself. I had just realized I was only in a t-shirt and shorts, my cuts were completely exposed! I quickly moved my arms behind my back, smiling nervously. "S-Sure! I'd love to come along, just one minute." I said, hoping to any god, that he wouldn't ask about it as I slid my red shoes on.

I walked to my closet and pulled out my grey hoodie, quickly throwing it on. "Okay, let's go!" I said, turning around to Todoroki. He didn't respond but instead, just stared at my now cloth-covered wrists, mouth slightly agape, his eyes wide.

"Todoroki?" I asked, getting a bit nervous. His mouth shut and his eyes met mine. I shivered as I see the look in his eye, it wasn't exactly a mad look, but still scared me a bit. Taking advantage of the moment he wasn't looking, I moved my arms away from my sides. Todoroki broke eye contact, looking back down for my arms, which were now hidden behind my back again.

He looked at me dead in the eye, once again. Just as I was thinking up away to get out of this, Todoroki grabbed one of my arms, making me wince enough to close my eyes. I felt the fabric of my sweater move up and my eyes quickly shot open. Todoroki had my arm in his hand and his other hand, holding up the fabric of my sweat shirt.

He was staring right at my arm, something that looked similar to sadness filled his normally cold features. I felt my face pale and I put my head down, just enough to have my, now dry, bangs cover my eyes and a bit of my face. I pulled my arm away from his grasp, tugging my sleeve back down over the cuts.

After taking a second to breathe, I lifted my head back up, with a close-eyed smile spread across my face, trying to make it seem more real than it actually was. "Let's go now, shall we?" I said, secretly asking him not to ask about what he just discovered. I got no response again, and because I was curious it caused me to open my eyes. 'I regret opening my eyes.' I thought when I saw Todoroki's expression.

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