I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

37 ~ Acting Like Uraraka

Midoriya's POV

We stood there for a second. The quiet wasn't awkward or calming, it was just... thoughtful? It was just kinda there. "Well, I'm not sure. There's a saying that might help you though. It goes something like, 'Home is a feeling, not a place.' I think, I'm not sure exactly." Todoroki said, his thumb rubbing small circles onto my forefinger's knuckle. "Can home be a person then?" I asked, not sure by what that really means. "I believe it can be. I mean, I feel more at home with you than my own house, so yeah, I'd say it can." Todoroki said calmly as the elevator stopped.

I hummed in response, trying to process and answer my own questions. "Look, just relax, you'll be fine." Todoroki said, pulling me along the path to my room. "Okay." I said, letting him drag me to my room and then in and onto my bed. "What are you doing? I have to pack." I mumbled into Todoroki's chest as he laid us down on my bed. "I'm relaxing you. Like I said before, no rush." Todoroki replied, pulling me closer and setting his chin atop my messy, green hair.

"But I have go pack." I mumbled again, not physically fighting at all. It was warm and I didn't want to move, so why would I? "It doesn't seem like you want to though. You're hugging me back and you're pretty much jelly in my arms." Todoroki laughed quietly, rubbing different shapes and lines on my back. "Hmm, I can't even deny how relaxing this is." I said, feeling like sleep would be able to take over easily at this point. I let my eyes shut.

Just as I was almost asleep, my mom's blood soaked body appeared and sent me pretty much flying off the bed. "Woah, woah! Mido, what's wrong?" I heard Todoroki call from the bed, but I couldn't reply, much less focus. I swallowed thickly through my heavy breathing as panic tightened in my chest and I fell to my knees.

'Murder.'

'Useless.'

'Idiot.'

'Pathetic.'

'Stupid.'

'Monster.'

'Fat.'

All the thoughts swirling in my head from just that image alone gave me shivers and cut my breath shorter than it was. I felt a warm burn in my eyes before watching my vision go blurry as I gripped my ears tightly, wanting the thoughts to go away. I heard my bed creak and felt a warm pair of arms wrap around my shaking frame. "Hey, I'm right here. It's okay. You're okay."

'Todoroki.' I thought, taking one of my hands off my ear to grab onto him. "See? It's okay, I'm right here." Todoroki whispered, rubbing my back as he held me close to his chest. "S-Sorry, T-T-Todo." My broken, muffled, mumbles surprising even me for a second. "For what? You've done nothing wrong. I'm the one that should be apologizing." Todoroki replied quietly, his gentle tone calming me to a small extent. I let go of my other ear, looking at him.

"Look, just calm down and we can pack and talk and listen to stupid, catchy music all day until you smile, yeah?" Todoroki said, pulling away so we could at each other as he made stupid faces throughout that whole sentence. I hummed as a response pulling us back into a hug. I relaxed and cleared my head as the trembling and tears stopped.

"Okay, let's do this!" I said, standing up quickly all the while avoiding head-butting Todoroki. "Feeling better?" Todoroki asked, getting up as well. "Yep! Sorry for that..." I trailed off, looking down at my hands. "I told you that it's okay. I get it, don't worry." Todoroki replied, petting my head as a soft smile greeted his beautiful face.

"Okay!" I giggled as I tried my best to smile and try to be happy. "Let's get this done!" I said, thinking that acting like Uraraka might help me out a bit. I ran over to my bed, getting my black suitcase out and basically throwing it on my bed. "Um, let's see..." I mumbled, bringing my right hand up to my lips and my left on to my hip as I was thinking. "I already have clothes there... and pretty much everything... else... um, right! Okay, don't need such a big bag..." I mumbled, still trying to keep my spirit up as I slowly put my suitcase back under my bed.

I stood back up as tears threatened to fall from my eyes. "Well, that failed, huh?" I asked rhetorically, as I rubbed my eyes and cheeks as the salty liquid slipped down my pale skin. Todoroki didn't say anything as he walked over to me and wrapped me in his arms from behind. "It's okay to hurt, you know?" Todoroki mumbled, resting his head on my messy green hair. "But it's my fault! She's gone! My mom's gone and there's nothing I can do..." I cried, yelling as I squeezed the front of my shirt. I cried for a bit longer as I calmed own.

"I know it's painful, I do. Just try to breathe and know that there are people that care, okay?" Todoroki cooed, calming me further. "Okay." I replied, sighing heavily, knowing that I still had to go back to the apartment. I jumped as someone started banging on my door. "Oi, Deku! Open up! I'm walking you home like it or not! Hurry the fuck up and open the door!" Kacchan hollered through the door.

I scrambled to get out of Todoroki's grip and quickly opened the door. "Hi, K-Kacchan!" I stuttered as I stepped to the side go let the explosive blonde in. "Whatever. Let's go, you damn nerd." Kacchan ordered, seeing as I had no bags packed. "Um..." I turned around, finding Todoroki to be the cause of the sound. "Yes?" I asked, feeling bad because I may have sorta forgot about him being there. "No hug or even a goodbye?" Todoroki asked stiffly, his arms open. I chuckled as I embraced the half n' half teen. "Bye, Todo. I'll see you tomorrow." I replied, giving Todoroki both things he was asking for.

"Bye. Oh hey, Blasty... Be. Nice." Todoroki demanded, his face saying how serious he was. "Huh?! No shit you bastard! Geez, let's go already. Goddamn you're slow!" Kacchan yelled, pretty much dragging me along by my collar.

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