I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

40 ~ Too Early

Midoriya's POV

I slowly woke up to my phone going off, over and over again. I was starting to get annoyed, trying to sleep in was my plan and whoever was calling me and blowing up my phone was ruining that.

I flipped over angierly as I answer the phone. "What in the hell could you want this early?" I growled, upset that they woke me up. "Um, is it a bad time for you?" Mina asked through the phone, sounding kinda scared or maybe nervous. I paused, looking at my phone, reading 'Uraraka'. "Yeah, 'cause this a good time to be calling a sleeping person. Why do you have Uraraka's phone and what do you want?" I asked, grumpy that I had to be up at 7:30 in the morning on my break.

"Well, um, we were wondering if you wanted to go to the mall with us?" Mina offered, still sounding unsure about talking to me. "Who's 'we'?" I asked, more calmly as I started waking up. I threw the blankets off my legs as I sat on the edge of my bed, leaning my head on free hand. "Me, Ura, Kami, and Tsu! Kiri and Bakubro might be there as well, but it's still a maybe for them!" Mina replied, seemingly more comfortable now that I wasn't being a butt head.

"When?" I asked blandly, still groggy and tired. "We were think around 10:30!" Mina replied. I could feel the happiness and the energy flowing through the phone. 'How can someone be so happy and energized this early in the morning?' I thought, straightening my back and running my hand through my hair. "Sure. I'll come." I replied flopping back down on my bed my feet hanging off.

"Cool! Even if you said no, Todoroki would've made you come." Mina said, making me feel like I really didn't have a choice now that she said that. "Todoroki's going?" I asked, remembering that she never said he was. "Yeah! He just told Tsu that he would!" Mina replied overly excited and I threw my right arm over my eyes. "You're too happy for it being 7:30 a.m." I complained lightly. "Uraraka said you'd say that." I could feel Mina's smile as she spoke.

"Tell her she's an ass for making you call me." I said, yawning afterwards. "Yeah," The pink skinned girl was interrupted by her own yawn. "Okay, no more yawning, it's not funny!" Mina laughed. "Yeah, yeah. Bye-bye Mina." I said, too tired to deal with her bubbly self. "See ya later, Midoriya!" Mina replied before I hung up.

Bonus:

"You were right, Ura! He's scary when he first wakes up!" Mina complained handing the phone back to the brown haired girl. "I told you! That's why I refused to do it!" Uraraka lectured, taking her phone back.

Back to Midoriya's POV

I laid on my bed for a while, dreading getting up. "I don't wanna!" I yelled to myself as I kick my legs and threw a small fit. I sighed as I sat up, looking at my window, the dark green curtain keeping most of the bright, morning light out. I stood up and opened them, my eyes dying a little at the brightness. "It's so quiet." I mumbled to myself, walking back to my bed, retrieving my forgotten phone.

I found myself scrolling through my music, looking for anything to listen to. I found myself drawn to an older song called 'Let You Down' by NF. I had listened to it before and didn't necessarily relate to all of it, but some of the lyrics really hit home. I lazily made my way to the kitchen, looking for bit before I deciding I'd just eat later, nothing looked good and I didn't want to cook. I entered the bathroom, getting my toothbrush ready and stuck it in my mouth, scrubbing as I walked around the apartment.

I remember playing hero with my mom. I'd be in that silly All Might onesie as ran around looking for my mom, who was always covered by the white blanket we kept on the back of the couch. I ran my fingers against the wall, feeling the bumps move the tips of my fingers. I continued to scrub my teeth as I sat down, just letting the music play, one song after the next not really paying attention to it anymore.

The memories went through my head, one after another. I wasn't happy and I wasn't sad, I just felt empty, worthless. I sat there letting my mind wander. It eventually got to the day where it always ends up. The day about four months ago. The panicked street. The noise. The feeling of my mother grabbing my hand. The sound of her pleading me to stay out of the danger. The decision to walk from her. The gasp. The sword. The blood. The slow-motion fall of my mom's purse. The pain ridden face. The sword. The blood. The purse. The pain.

'It's your fault.'

I flinched, sitting up from my slouched position, looking around the room. Nothing. Nobody. I stood up, walking to the bathroom. I quickly finished scrubbing my teeth and rinsed my mouth out with mouthwash and then water. I wiped off my face as I looked in the mirror. 'I remember when my mom had taught me to brush my teeth.' I smiled at the random memory.

'And now she's dead.'

I knew this voice was in my head, I did, I just hated it, so I responded. "Yeah, she is."

'And it's your fault.'

"Yeah, I know." I mumbled, backing up to the wall and slid down it till my bottom hit the cold, tile floor. I felt hot tears slip and the voice never responded. 'Being in this house is so hard.' I thought to myself. I sat there, in the bathroom, crying like a child for a while before dragging myself up. I sluggishly walked back to my room, closing the door after I got in. I grabbed the back of my collar, pulling until I could reach more of it, getting it off my head. I grabbed a t-shirt and a hoodie, sliding them over my thin figure.

I didn't bother changing out of my sweats and laid back down on my bed. The music hadn't been stopped and only now was my mind quiet enough to register it. It was another less popular song. It was called 'Born Without a Heart' by Faouzia. I had heard it before, so it was familiar, but not enough to to know the lyrics. I was finally able to relax and doze a bit.

That is until I heard a banging at my door. I flinched awake and hurriedly made my way to the door, unlocking it and opening it to find an almost distressed looking Todoroki. "Why Didn't You Answer Your Phone?!" Todoroki shouted as soon as he saw me. "Huh? Oh, um, wait what time is it?" I asked, feeling as if maybe I fell asleep. "10:47, why?" Todoroki asked, not exactly sure he was following.

"Oh! I'm sorry, I must've fell to sleep. Give me a minute and we can go!" I said, running to my room and grabbing my phone, which was still playing music. I paused it as I grabbed socks from my dressed and slipped them on as I was trying to walk over to the door way. "Oh, wallet!" I said, walking to the counter and grabbing my wallet and keys from the wooden bowl. I slipped my shoes on as we walked out of the door way; locking it before we walked away.

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