I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

62 ~ Can't Find a Pulse

Midoriya's POV

I felt as the spray from the rushing river below me soaked me more and more as I stood atop of the bridge. I held my breath as I looked at the roaring water. The water called to me, beckoning me to jump into its harsh embrace. It was an enchanting call, and I almost fell pray to the beautiful sound of rushing water. I was just a step away from the one thing I had been craving, a mere move. As simple as leaning forward. A breath would be enough to send me falling. I was so close to finally getting what I wanted, but I couldn't move. After everything, after all of this, and I still was too much of a wimp to jump, to reach that extra little bit and finally accomplish something meaningful.

They were all right. The bullies from what felt like forever ago. I was nothing. I would never be able to live up to anyone's expectations. I would never be good enough for anyone, so what was the point of me being around anymore? I am a waste of space. A piece of garbage to be thrown out with the rest. I wasn't anything special. Just an average teen, foolish enough to think that life would always be smiles and laughs. Stupid enough to be tricked into thinking they were something when they were nothing but a tool. A toy to be thrown out when it got old. Something people would only want for a short while. The only thing that would last was my urge to throw myself off this bridge into the cruel waters awaiting my arrival.

I let tears stream down my eyes as the rain came from above and the spray from the river came from below. Years ago, they changed the bridge from a log to a wood bridge with two railings at least three feet high. There was nothing to hold onto, so just a gust of wind could send me falling into the raging river. I had taken my shoes off, put the note inside of one, and threw the jacket Mic lent me on top to keep the paper from getting too wet. I breathed in and out and as I was about to jump... "Izuku!" I heard a call from the left of me. I looked towards the muddy trail I had followed just under 30 minutes ago and saw Todoroki walking towards me as Kacchan stood there out of breath and looking at me with desperate eyes. I watched as Todoroki walked closer and closer, his foot going from the mud to the wood made me realize how close he really was.

"Stop! No! GO AWAY!" I screamed, making Todoroki stop. "Baby! Please, just listen to me." Todoroki said, raising his arms as if reaching out to hug me. He took a single step towards me, a small, cautious step. "Let's go on a walk, okay?" Todoroki offered, his arms still open for me. I shook my head, wobbling due to the force of it. "Oh My God!" Kacchan screamed, rushing over to where Todoroki was. The only reason he stopped running over was because Todoroki stopped him. "Izuku." Todoroki said, putting his arms back out for me to jump into. I looked at Todoroki, his arms open and ready for me, then I looked at the river, watching it rush by.

"Izuku." I shivered at my name, the rain starting to slow down after almost two hours of it down pouring. "Shut Up!" I yelled, still looking at the river. I felt as if something was pulling me into the river. I felt torn. Todoroki's arms looked so inviting and warm, but  the rush of the river was appealing too, the dark water running fast enough to leave white mist coming up from it; the contrast was beautiful and welcoming. I looked back at the two, smiling the best I could as the sun started shining, the spray from the river hiding my tears as they split over.

"I'm sorry."

I leaned forward, watching as Todoroki's and Kacchan's face turned into panic and they raced forward. I felt the frigid water hit my body painfully and my lungs held in as much air as they could. The water of the river pushed and shoved me around roughly. My lungs and nose starting to burn as I was flipped and spun, hands, knees, feet, everything being scraped as I was forced down into the water. 'Why am I holding my breath? That's not what I want.' I thought, smacking my shin into something, hard enough to at least bruise. The water blurred my vision and my body as still trying to swim, having no luck though. My head started to pound. My ears were ringing. My body felt as if it was set to fire. I felt as my lungs released, my mouth opening, and all the air escaping. My body cooled in an instant and I watched as everything went black.

Todoroki's POV

Midoriya turned towards me and Bakugo, smiling a sad smile as he muttered out an apology before leaning forwards, falling from the bridge. Before I knew what exactly what was happening, I was practically trying to follow Midoriya as I slammed into the railing. I felt arms wrap around me. "NO!" Bakugo screamed as he held onto me tightly, tears rushing down my face. I shoved off his arms as I ran to the river bank, running along the side. I looked at the water for any sign of the green haired boy I loved so much. I ended up freezing numerous branches as I tried finding my boyfriend. I continued to run, quickly finding the rocks in the river getting sharper the further down I got. More panic and adrenaline rushed as I searched harder. Something caught on a rock caught my attention. I squinted, trying to see what it was as I was planning on wasting no more precious time.

It was him. It was my Midoriya! I quickly froze around his body and ran around the ice bridge that was made in the process. I pulled his body out of the water, the tears flowing down my face not stopping. I quickly pulled him into my arms and ran back to solid ground. I layed him down gently, putting my ear next to his mouth. I couldn't feel, or hear, anything. I pushed the collar of his turtleneck down, pushing my fingers onto his cold skin. I held my breath as I felt for a pulse. Bakugo came running up to me, Kirishima and Aizawa hot on his tail. I looked up as the tears started falling faster. "I-I can't fInd a p-Pulse!" I sobbed, moving out of Aizawa's way. I found myself watching my teacher preform CPR on my boyfriend as I was wrapped in a strong hug. 'Please! PLEASE! Don't Let Him Die!'

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