I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

36 ~ Home?

Midoriya's POV

We finished breakfast, Kacchan saying it was good, but that he could've done it better. Kirishima laughed and asked what I was planning for break. "That starts today, huh?" I asked, feeling a bit nervous all of a sudden. "Yep!" Kirishima responded happily. "Why are you so happy if you're staying here at the dorm?" I asked, not really knowing how he stayed so positive all the time.

"Well, 'cause that means I don't have to go home." Kirishima said, tilting his head at me, his face making it seem like it was something obvious. "Oh, okay. I guess that makes sense." I said, curious as why his home life was bad. 'I mean, I'm totally on his side, if I didn't have to go home today I wouldn't. But if I don't do it now it'll only be more painful later on. I guess this is the best time and if it gets hard I can-' "Hey Kirishima, will you do me a favor?" I asked, feeling like this was a good enough solution.

"Hm? Me? What is it?" Kirishima asked. "Can you, um, sorry this is a bit of a bother, but can you keep your schedule open so if it becomes too much for me to handle, during the first few days I can have you come over?" I asked, being extra to make sure I didn't speed up as I spoke. "Sure! Can I ask, why me, though?" Kirishima asked, his toothy smile lighting up the room.

"Huh? Well because out of everyone that's staying here for break, you're the one I know best." I said, not realizing how weird it was for me to know who all is staying. "Oh, cool. Yeah, no, it's good, the only plans I had was on Thursday hanging out with Bakubro." Kirishima said, looking totally unfazed. "Wait, Mido, how do you know who's all staying?" I looked over to my right, seeing Todoroki looking confused.

"Aizawa told me. He wanted to give me some options before he found out about all the other garbage." I said, avoiding the details so I wasn't being looked down on. "Oh, okay." Todoroki said, knowing exactly what I was talking about. "Anyway, Kirishima, I already have plans for Thursday, so it's okay, you go ahead and keep making him soft." I said, winking at him as his face went red. I dodged a hand I barely knew was coming and came up laughing as I realized, from the sound of explosions, that it was Kacchan.

"What? I'm just saying!" I laughed as Kirishima and Kacchan were sporting bright red faces. "Shut up, loser!" Kacchan yelled, stomping up the stairs as to avoid any other teasing. "Yeah, yeah!" I hollered back, looking back to Todoroki, who looked very shell shocked. "What? Why do you look like you just saw something amazing?" I asked, fairly confused.

"You just talked to Bakugo... without him trying to blow you to pieces. It was.. kinda odd." Todoroki said, his eyes still opened more than normal. "Hm? I thought he tried blowing my head off." I said, smirking as I knew exactly what he meant. "I mean after that, Mido! Like he didn't try killing you as you teased him." Todoroki said, pushing his hands back and forth from his sides.

"Oh, that's normal! Kirishima's made him sort of soft. Kacchan doesn't try killing me anymore, but he still yells at me often." I said, trailing off at the end. "Normal? He blew up your desk so many times he's started having to pay for them himself!" Todoroki shouted, obviously seeing this as big news. "Hahaha! I know!" I laughed, finding this side of Todoroki fun to mess with.

"You tease. Let's go pack, yeah?" Todoroki asked, grabbing my hand gently as he started for my dorm. "Wait, what about your stuff?" I asked, stopping before we got to the elevator. "My dad got a surprise meeting over seas so I don't have to be home until like, Saturday. Sunday." Todoroki replied, as he pulled a little harder.

"Wait, so I'm not free? You'll be with me the whole break?" I asked, feeling the tears burn and sting as I tried holding them back. I stopped again as seeing wasn't easy anymore. "No, I'll still respect your wishes, I just have a lot of time to go back home. I'm just saying there's no rush." Todoroki explained, reaching up to my face and wiping some of the escaping tears.

"Don't cry. It's okay." Todoroki comforted me as he stroked my face and hand with his thumbs. "B-But I want to be alone during break!" I cried, moving my free hand up to my face, wiping the opposite side of Todoroki's hand. "And you will be, we'll just be having lunch everyday. Is that okay?" Todoroki asked, standing a bit closer to me as he let go of my hand and moved it up to my cheek.

I cried a bit harder for no reason. "I wanna go home Todo." I mumbled through my tears. "Okay, we can do that. Let's go pack really quickly and then we can go." Todoroki replied, keeping his hands where they were. "Okay." I replied with my head down, tears still running down my face but at a slower pace. "Let's go, yeah?" Todoroki asked, our hands interlacing again as we walked the small space to the elevator.

"You feeling better?" Todoroki asked quietly as the elevator started moving. "Uh huh." I replied, rubbing my eyes again. "You sure?" Todoroki asked again, worry painted on his face. "I said yeah. I don't even know why I started crying..." I said, trailing off as I looked at my feet. "Maybe it's because you're not entirely sure how you feel. Don't think too hard about that, I'm kinda new at the people thing." Todoroki replied with uncertainty.

"Can I even call it home anymore?" I asked rhetorically. "It's not going to be the same without her there and it's my fault! It's not the same anymore, I haven't been there for awhile and it scares me knowing that she won't be there to greet me when I walk in. Is it even considered my 'home?' anymore?" I blurted out all the unknowingly building anxiety I had, wanting but not wanting an answer at the same time. I was just so stressed and frustrated.

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