I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

11 ~ Too Much

Midoriya's POV

On the inside, I was a scared, livid, sad, and pathetic mess. On the outside, I was completely pissed and looked as if I could murder someone. "Move, or I will make you." I said, looking at the taller boy in front of me. "Wanna fucking bet?!" Kacchan replied, stepping up, now just barely behind Todoroki. I looked to the both of them, wanting to cry. "I've done it before and I will do it again." I stated, trying to get pass the two.

"Midoriya, please. We just want to help." Todoroki pleaded, stopping me by putting him arm out. I sighed looking back up to him. "Did you very think for a fun little second that, maybe, just maybe, I didn't, and still don't, want help?" I said, my throat getting dry again. Todoroki didn't say anything, just stood there, jaw-dropped and staring. "I didn't think so." I said, turning back into the kitchen, grabbing an other water bottle.

I was turning away from the fridge, when I noticed the floor. Not only was there a few drops of blood, but it also made me notice that everything was starting to get blurry. 'I have to get to my room and bandage my arm. Preferably sooner rather than later.' I thought, looking back up.

Todoroki now had a sadness in his eyes, though his face was his normal stoic one. I sighed, feeling kind of guilty. "Hey, I'm sorry guys, it's just been a long day." I said to everyone who were now anywhere but near the kitchen. "Denki especially." I said, looking to Denki. I was trying my best to ignore the blurriness as I started walking off to my room. "I'll be in my dorm room." I said, as I walked pass Todoroki, Sero, Kirishima, and Kacchan.

"Deku, can we talk for a sec?" Kacchan asked, turning to me, his head hug low. "What?" I responded kindly as possible, trying to make this quick. "Alone?" He asked, still not looking up. I don't know why, but I looked to Todoroki, it was hard to see his expression as we weren't exactly close. "Can it wait?" I asked, knowing if I waited much longer, I might pass out. "Yes and no." Kacchan mumbled. "It's going to have to, sorry."

I looked to my left and there stood Aizawa. 'Great.' I thought sarcastically. He put his hand on my left shoulder. "Head off to your room, I'll be there in a moment." Aizawa whispered to me, sending chills down my spine. I wanted to cry, and I definitely didn't want to talk to Aizawa, especially after what happened on the roof. Despite that, I nodded my head and started walking to my room.

I reached my room quicker than I thought I would. I went to take off my shoes, and then realized, my shoes were still on the roof. 'Oh no. Oh nononono. This is not happening. The note! What if Aizawa read it? What is he doing? Is he telling my classmates? This is not good.' My thoughts were frantic and my breathing started to quicken as I tugged at my hair.

'You know, whatever. Whatever. It'll be okay. I just have to forget this even happened. Yeah.' I thought, taking deep, shaky breaths. I stood up barely keeping myself up, using the wall as a crutch. I walked to the bathroom, opening the cupboards under my sink. I pulled out a few bandages, gauze, and some hydrogen peroxide. I took off my shirt and walked, more stumbled, to my right, where the bathtub is, grabbing a washcloth before sitting down on my knees.

I poured the hydrogen peroxide on my wrist waiting a few seconds before gently tapping it off with a cloth. I grabbed the gauze on put it over the cuts, then taking the bandages and wrapped my stinging arm. I walked over to my mirror, seeing my ribs, more noticeable than before. My hips being more defined as well. My knees felt weak and I felt very dizzy, as I fell, my knees slamming onto the tile floor. I took a breath before I stood up, still slightly wobbly and using the wall as a crutch. I walked back into my room and to my closet.

I grabbed my grey hoodie and stared it for a second. 'Only a few days ago, I was grabbing this same sweatshirt. It's different this time though, I'm not hiding this time, I'm just looking for comfort.' I thought, bring it up to my face. It smelled like Todoroki. Vanilla and a slight burnt wood smell mixed together perfectly. I loved it and stood there for a minute just breathing in his scent.

It was all interrupted by a knock on my door. I looked at it for a second, freezing in place. "Midoriya, if you don't open up in ten seconds, I'm busting the door down." My heart started beating again as I realized it was only Aizawa. "Yeah, yeah. One sec." I said, throwing my sweatshirt on and quickly throwing off my wet pants and on a pair of warm dry ones. I paused in front of my closet, trying to keep myself calm.

"Midoriya, I know you meant a minute, but what is taking so long?" Aizawa asked, through the door. I sighed, rolling my eyes and walking to the door, opening it and letting him in. I closed the door behind him, feeling my anxiety raise just a bit more. I turned around, not even bothering to smile. It was quiet as we stood there, Aizawa had his back to me.

"Midoriya, I found your note." Aizawa almost whispered, taking his hand of his pocket, holding up the slip of paper. I felt every muscle in my body tighten, including my hands, as they were now in tight fists. "Of course you did, but can I ask, did you tell my classmates?" I was nervous while asking and reached out, grabbing the note back. 'I really hope he hasn't told anyone', was the only thought, filling my head. "No, I didn't tell them." Aizawa answered, turning to me. "B-But what did y-you tell them then?" I was scared, I didn't have a clue what he would say to my classmates.

"I told them it was a bully that did that to your arm." Aizawa replied simply, surprising me. 'That's not a bad lie.' I thought, kind of impressed. "After Bakugo said was he convinced, everyone else was as well." Aizawa finished explaining. I let go a sigh of relief and walked over to my bed, sitting down on the edge. "Thanks Aizawa." I said, looking down at my feet. "I want to ask you something, and you should know, you can decline my offer." Aizawa said, sitting down on the bed next to me.

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