I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

7 ~ I Hurt Them

Midoriya's POV

"Good idea." I said, dropping Kastuki and proceeding to send him flying with another One for All kick. Everything started going fuzzy and I felt dizziness fill my head. Then it went black.

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I came flying up from my bed, landing on my feet. I instantly regretted it as pain shot throughout my whole body and Aizawa's scarf wrapped around me. He pulled me back onto the bed, holding me down tightly. "Can't....Breathe." I gasped out, tapping my thigh as if saying 'I give, let me go'. My teacher hesitantly let me go. "Well, that's one way to wake up." I mumbled, smiling weakly, sitting up slowly, and rubbing my sore ribs.

Everything came flooding back to me and my smile quickly faded. Tears filled my eyes, as I turned to Aizawa as quickly as I could. "Where's Kacchan?" I asked, hoping it was just a dream. "He's on the bed next to you, but don't you dare go after him." Aizawa said, motioning to the white curtain to my right.

"It... It wasn't a... dream?" I asked, feeling horrible. "No, but can I ask what you remember?" I looked down at my hands, trying to calm the breathing that I hadn't realized had speed up. "I-I remember fighting with Kacchan for training. He had blown me out of the field several times already, and so I used Full Cowling to get up right next to him." Tears were now slipping down my cheeks. I quickly wiped them away, and continued.

"H-he told me to get serious. As serious as i-if.." I had to pause, it still hurt so much to think about her. "As serious as if my m-mom was w-watching a-and hoping t-that I w-won." I was choking on my sobs as I remember what I did to Kacchan. I had to take a break, just long enough to calm myself down.

"I was already in a bad mood, b-but he knew I was having a hard time with that. I-I was just so mad. I remember feeling as if I had no control of anything. Not my body nor my emotions." I told Aizawa, shutting out my emotions, knowing they would only make this harder.

"I beat him quite heavily, probably breaking a few ribs. I ordered him to apologize, and when he didn't, it only made me angrier. I kicked a few more times, and then picked him up by the collar. I hit him once in the gut. I went to hit him again, when your scarf thingy grabbed my arm." No matter how hard I was trying to hold my emotions back, tears would still escape my eyes.

I wiped my eyes again. "You told me to drop him. A thought came flooding in and so I did. I dropped Kacchan then kicked him using One for All. I remember feeling fuzzy and dizzy. Then blacking out." I sniffed, and wiped my face again. "Next thing I know, I'm here, being held down by your capture gear."

I said, looking at Aizawa. "You did very well, Midoriya, but can I ask why you were in a bad mood before all this happened?" Aizawa asked. "T-The nightmare. It keeps playing through my head." I lied, looking back to my hands, now noticing the new bandages on my wrists.

"Okay, I will be heading out then." Aizawa said, standing up and turning to the door. "W-wait!" I almost yelled. Aizawa turned back to me, "Yes?" I swallowed, not knowing what to expect. "What happened after I blacked out?" I asked, hoping it wasn't too bad.

Aizawa sat back down where he was previously. "After kicking Bakugo. You grabbed my scarf and threw me as well, putting me out of condition. Some of your classmates tried stopping you while others went to get help and the rest kept you away from Bakugo." He explained, rubbing the bridge of his nose.

"The worst thing was, my quirk couldn't cancel yours out. When help finally did arrive, it took Midnight's mist and President Mic's screaming to knock you out." I was completely terrified. 'I could've killed someone.' I thought.

"D-Did anyone but you and Kacchan get hurt by me?" I asked quietly, not knowing if I truly wanted to know. "Yeah, every one has small cuts and bruises. The only one hurt badly was Sero. You broke his arm. He had taped you, and you threw him like you had thrown me." Aizawa said, looking towards the door. "One last question." I said looking up at him.

"Sure kid. Ask away." Aizawa said, sliding further down into his chair. "Can I see Todoroki?" I asked, honestly wanting to see him and apologize. Aizawa got up, putting his hand on my head, petting me softly. "I'll ask if he wants to visit. A lot of your classmates are terrified of you now. Just thought you'd like to know." Aizawa turned and left. I sat there quietly for a minute, trying not to cry.

"Stupid Deku." I looked at the curtain next to me. "K-Kacchan?" I asked, nervously. "Who else dumb ass?" Kacchan replied. "Sorry, for, you know, almost killing you." I said, feeling really bad. "I should be the one apologizing. I shouldn't have...well...you know. Sorry, Izuku." Kacchan said, trailing of at the last part.

I heard some shuffling, then saw the curtain pull open. I saw Kacchan there, back in his school uniform, all exposed skin looking pale and covered in bruises and small cuts. "I'll leave now, Deku." Kacchan, said walking, more limping, out the door. I was now sitting in a hospital bed, all alone. 'I could've killed someone today.' I thought, tears running down my face. I heard the door open and saw Todoroki standing there. "Hey, Midor-"

"TODOROKI!" I screamed, jumping into his arms, making us fall to the ground. "I'm so so sorry! I didn't mean to snap at you!" I yelled into his shoulder, tears running down my face. I felt him wrap his arms around me, pushing his face into my neck. "Me too, I shouldn't have grabbed your wrist like that." Todoroki mumbled into my neck. "Can I ask you a question?" I asked, not letting my grip loosen for even a second.

"Sure." He replied. "H-How many of our classmates are scared of me?" I asked, feeling like I could cry again. "Well, Mina, Kirishima, and Denki are more mad than scared. Mineta, Momo, Ojiro, and... I can't remember her name, the invisible girl, are scared of you. Sero surprisingly just wants you to be okay. And I don't know about anyone else. I know Uraraka, Iida, and I see you no differently and are just worried." Todoroki said, rubbing my back.

"I-I'm such a-a monster. I could've killed someone today, Todo. How am I going to face them? I hurt them." I cried into his shoulder. I didn't want to lose anyone and he was the only one I felt truly safe with. "Sshhh. It's okay. It will be okay." Todoroki whispered into my ear. "Everyone's okay, it's okay." He mumbled sweet nothings into my ear, until I had calmed down again.

"How 'bout we move to the bed?" Todoroki asked. I nodded my head, too tired and sad to talk. Todoroki picked me up and laid us down on the bed, holding me in his arms. He stroked my hair and eventually, I fell to sleep next to Todoroki.

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