I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

64 ~ Might not Make it

Todoroki's POV

When we got to the house, the lights were off and it was dead quiet. Aizawa patted me on the shoulder and gave me a small smile, before walking to the kitchen. I followed after him, taking my shoes off at the door. I plopped down on one of the stools next to the island, resting my head on my arms, laying on top of the cool counter top. I sighed, trying to sink into the seat. "Tired?" Aizawa asked, pulling something out of the fridge. "Something like that." I mumbled into my arms.

"Yeah, I get it. Don't worry." I looked up from my arms as my dark haired teacher spoke. I didn't say anything, not wanting to seem too nosy. My phone started going off, the ring tone being a very familiar one. I pulled it out of my pocket, answering it and laying my head back down. "Shoto?" I heard Fuyumi's voice from the other side of the line. "Fuyumi." I said, feeling a bit more relaxed. "I know you said that you might not come back before you left, but are you?" Fuyumi's tone said everything. She was worried.

"Not tonight." I sighed, putting the call on speaker phone and my phone next to my folded arms. "Will you answer me if I ask why you ran out like you did?" My entire body stiffened and my eyes went wide. Before I could respond, a choked sob ripped it's way up my throat. "F-Fuyumi. He- I- we- he-" I broke down, not being able to hold back the tears. "Oh, Shoto. It's okay, you don't have to explain. Just try to keep me informed, okay? Dad was a bit mad you didn't text or anything so let's try to keep that up too, yeah?" Fuyumi used such a soft tone, one that let me know that I was going to be okay. I nodded, not really thinking as my tears slowed down.

"She can't hear you nodding." Aizawa commented, cooking something on the stove. I heard a small chuckle from my sister. "Okay Sho, make sure to eat dinner and get some rest. I love you." Fuyumi's smile could practically be heard as she spoke. "I love you too." I mumbled, my crying completely stopped. "Good night."

"Night." I replied, listening as she hung up. I left my phone where it was, not bothering with turning it off or putting it back in my pocket. I sat there, head in my arms for a while longer, starting to doze off a bit when a bowl was placed in front of me. "Eat." Aizawa stated, taking a bite from his bowl. I sat up, looking at the fried rice and ham, my stomach deciding to be loud as it smelled the food. I grabbed the chopsticks placed on top of the bowl and started eating. My eyes were sore and I really just wanted to sleep. I went through the motions of eating, but didn't really pay attention, feeling both numb and tired all at the same time being a bad combo.

I only realized that I had finished eating when I stuck empty chopsticks into my mouth. I got up, rinsed my dished, and left them in the sink. "Thanks for letting me stay and for the dinner too. I'm going to head up to bed though, it's been a long day." I said, tapping Aizawa's foot with my own. I sluggishly walked up the stairs and into Midoriya's room, going to his closet and grabbing the too big clothes I bought from him. I did up one button of the shirt before jumping into my boyfriend's bed. I laid there for a moment, just breathing in his sent. I bundled up the top blanket and hung onto it as if it was going to just disappeared from my grasp. 'Please.... Midoriya... You have to make it through this.' I thought, hugging the blanket an extra bit hard, breathing in his smell before letting myself relax and fall into a heavy sleep.

《♤》

I woke up to a knock on the door, the bundled up blanket still in my arms. "Todoroki? Are you awake?" I couldn't help but be a bit saddened at it being Mic's voice coming through the door. "I am now." I groaned, sitting up, even though I really didn't want to. "Okay, may I come in?" Mic asked. "Sure." I yawned and stretched before slumping back down. "I just got back from the hospital and thought I'd tell you what's going on." Mic said, walking over and sitting next to me. "Okay." I replied, no longer feeling all too tired. "He has a high fever that won't break and he lost a lot of blood. We found a suicide note in one of the boots he was wearing. I thought it'd be best if you read it before anyone else." Mic all but whispered, handing me at least two pieces of paper, folded into each other. I felt tears burn at my eyes as I grabbed it from the blonde. "Thanks." I mumbled, my voice cracking.

I was about to start unfolding it when I remembered what happened the last time I read the last one without his permission. I sighed, closing what I had opened. "I'll wait and read it with Midoriya." I said, holding the papers in my hands. "Todoroki. He- Midoriya might not make it..." Mic mumbled, his eyes drifting away from mine. "No! He has to make it! He will!" I shouted, the heavy feeling in my chest starting to grow. "With his fever spiking and dropping like it has, it's, well, it's not a good sign." Mic replied,  looking at me as he spoke and dropping it when he finished. I saw a tear drop reflect some light and realized how selfish I was being. I lowered my head, looking at my hands. "I-I don't want him to go... I love him, so so much. Why? What did I do wrong? It-It's not fair." I trailed off, Mic's crying being contagious as tears feel from my face at a fast speed.

We cried together for awhile before I ended up falling back to sleep.

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