I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

15 ~ Realization

Todoroki's POV

I went over to where the jacket was and picked it up. Midoriya jumped all of a sudden and I didn't know why. He put his hands out and I handed him his jacket. He sighed, took it, and slid it over his head. I watched as every muscle moved until they were all covered and he was reaching towards me again. I was so confused. 'I have nothing in my hands, what could he want?' Midoriya continued by making grabby hands and I understood.

I had seen kids doing that to their mothers on the street, just before the mom picked them up. I walked over and took Midoriya in my arms, putting him in my lap while I sat on the bed. His grip was tight, but not suffocating. I started to worry, he was jumpy and a bit clingy. "Are you okay?" I questioned, knowing he would tell me if I asked. "Mhmm, just don't let go." Midoriya mumbled into my the crock neck. "I won't." I agreed, keeping him in my lap and rubbing circles and lines on his back.

I felt him relax a bit, sending a surge of accomplishment through me. It made me happy, that I can make him calm down just by hugging him. It was the night when he was in the Recovery Room that I realized how much I loved him. I had to have help, but I realized it in time.

(Flashback start)

I ran behind the heroes as they carried Midoriya to the infirmary. I wasn't allowed in, so I went back to the locker room and changed back into my school clothes. I sighed as I closed my locker and turned to find Kirishima, his eyes a bit red and puffy. "Oh hey Todoroki! I didn't know you were in here!" Kirishima said, smiling and waving. "Yeah. Have you been crying?" I asked, still looking at his face.

"Uuhh, Yeah." Kirishima replied, rubbing the back of his neck. "Is it because of what happened?" I asked, staying here so that he wouldn't be alone. "Yeah." Kirishima mumbled, looking down as tears brimmed his eyes. "I just, I don't know how Bakugo is doing and I can't see him. I'm just so worried." Kirishima explained, his voice breaking and tears slipping down his face. I didn't know what to say to that.

Kirishima sat on a bench and put his hands to his face, his soft sobs filling the room. I walked over to the bench and sat down next to him. "I'm not so great at comforting crying people, but I know both Bakugo and Midoriya will make it out okay. They're strong, we just have to be patient." I said quietly, putting my hand on his back. Slowly, the sobs stopped and Kirishima looked up at me. "You like Midoriya, don't you?" He asked, making me flinch and grow very warm in the face.

"Like, like like?" I asked, not sure if I made any sense. "How you formed a sentence with the same word, makes me want to laugh, but yes, like that." Kirishima laughed, his eyes still red and puffy. "I-I... I don't know." I said, internally face palming for stuttering. "You don't know?" Kirishima asked, raising one eyebrow. "I've never had a crush or anything like that before." I said, now taking my turn to look down.

"Okay, so how do ya feel around him Todobroki?" Kirishima asked, using a weird nickname. "I worry for him when he's not around and I get a fuzzy feeling when he touches me. Also, I'm not sure I like that nickname. It's a bit odd." I explained, keeping my stoic, 'I don't care', look on my face.

"You are so in love, m'dude. Really? I liked that nickname." Kirishima said, smirking a bit. I felt the heat rise in my face again. "You're one to talk, look at you. You're so worried you cried." I said, using my quirk to cool off. "Hey!" Kirishima jumped up, looking at me. I tried finding where his hair stopped, but failed. Kirishima was literally as red as his hair. "At least I know what love is, you're so dense, you had to ask for help!" Kirishima slightly raising his voice a bit, teasing me.

"Really? 'Cause I don't remember asking for help. If I remember right, you asked me if I liked Midoriya." I said back, knowing full well that he was right. I am kind of dense when it comes to things like this.

(End of Flashback)

I continued to rub his back, as I thought. "Hey Mido." I said, catching his attention. He hummed in response, but didn't move too much. "I want to tell you something, but I don't want it to change our relationship, okay?" I said, needed the reassurance. "Of course." Midoriya replied, sitting up, still in my lap. He looked confused, so I spoke.

"In the time you were recovering, even though it was a short time, I realized that I like you." I trailed off, getting nervous, even though he said our relationship wouldn't change. "I get it if you don't like me back, or if you're not even gay or bi. I just really like you and I know how much this changes things but, oh, I'm muttering."

All my words just started pouring out of my mouth and I couldn't stop them. Midoriya was quiet and it made me uneasy. "Please, just say something." I mumbled, my eyes starting to sting as tears started to pool. "Y-You love me? Even though I cut? Even though I'm a skeleton?" Midoriya asked, looking at me with no emotion shown on his face.

I nodded my head, looking Midoriya in the eye. Tears started running down his face and I panicked. "I-I'm sorry! Please don't cry!" I said, a bit louder than needed. Midoriya brought his hands up to his face, whipping the tears, even though more fell after. I felt my heart break as I watched him cry. I pulled him into a hug as I felt the tears well up in my own eyes. I didn't want Midoriya to see me like this, so I hugged him.

"I'm sorry." Midoriya suddenly said, pulling away from my chest. I didn't think anything could out shine the sun, but in this moment, I was proven wrong. Midoriya's smile made the sun look like the moon. "I was so happy I started crying. I like you too, Todo." I giggled a bit, and soon enough my giggles turned into a full laugh.

"A-Are you okay, Todo?" Midoriya asked, giving me a strange look. "Yes, better than ever! Other than I think I might need shades, otherwise, your smile might end up blinding me." I said, picking him up and setting him on the floor. Midoriya dead panned at me, before laughing to the point of tears. Can I just say, how contagious his laugh is? I started laughing with him. What I said just now was pretty cheesy after all.

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