I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

17 ~ Sleep? What's That?

Midoriya's POV

It was dark, nothing but black filled my vision. I turned to my left, then to my right, hoping to find something, anything. 'I-I'm alone.' I thought, my breathing starting to speed up. 'Alone', my own thoughts echoing. "Understandable. You murdered me, your own mother, who would ever love you after that?" I looked behind me again, finding my mom standing there.

"I-It's not my f-fault." I said, trying not to cry. "It IS your fault, Izuku. You didn't even think about the danger I was in. How heartless." She said with little emotion, as the sword flew into her abdomen. "No!" I screamed, trying to run to her. I was so close, but she turned to dust just before my hand reached her. I spun around, trying to find her. "Mom?" I called, hoping I could see her smile again.

"Don't call me that you Monster!" I turned to where her voice sounded from.

'Murder.'

'Loser.'

'Pathetic.'

I turned, looking for the source of the voice. "I-It's not true." I said, my head pounding.

'Nerd.'

'Monster.'

'Villain.'

'Useless.'

"Just die already." I turned quickly, finding Todoroki standing there. He had no expression and was just standing there, not moving at all. "W-What?" I mumbled, not believing what I just heard. "You heard me, just go die Dammit." The duel haired man said, losing his temper. "Just Die!" Todoroki screamed, his eyes being replaced with black holes, blood started to fall from them. 'Maybe he's right.'

My eyes opened quickly, filling with tears instantly. My breathing was irregular and fast. I slowly sat up, feeling something stir from beside me. "Mido?" Todoroki asked, quietly. "T-Todo." I sighed, feeling a wave of relief fill me as he sat up. He rubbed his eyes, looking at me confusedly. "Oh no, what's wrong?" Todoroki asked, now looking completely awake. I calmed my breathing as quickly as I could and wiped my eyes.

"O-Oh, just a nightmare. It's okay, now." I whispered, waving my hands in front of me. "You know, before she was sent to the hospital, my mom said that talking about it helps." Todoroki said, scooting closer to me. I could feel every muscle in my body tense as he said that. "Yeah, I've tried that." I mumbled looking away from him. Last time I told anyone, it only made me feel worse about everything. "Didn't work?" Todoroki asked, apparently hearing what I said.

I hummed in response, not really feeling like talking. I laid back down, laying on my right side, waiting for Todoroki to follow. When he did, he gently places his warm hand on my face. I close my eyes, gently pushing my face into the warmth. "Go back to sleep." Todoroki whispered , running his thumb along my cheek. "Haha, Sleep? What's that?" I joked, open my eyes and giving him a weird face. Todoroki looked at me, a smirk starting to show on his face.

"Something most people are doing at this ungodly hour." Todoroki said, obviously trying not to laugh. He was pretty successful at it, while I failed and giggled at his remark. "What time is it anyway?" I asked, not being able to see the clock. Todoroki turned his head a bit and then back. "4:22." Todoroki said, yawning. Yawns being as contagious as they are, made me yawn as well.

"Wow." I mumbled. "That's a total of three hours of sleep, not bad." I continued, feeling proud of myself. "Not bad? How much sleep do you get normally?" Todoroki asked, looking at me as if I had said something in a foreign language. "An hour, hour and a half. Why?" I replied. 'Oh, wait, I've always had issues sleeping, it's just especially bad right now. I guess it would be normal to have about eight hours of sleep.' I thought. "Yep, eight hours is what most people run on." Todoroki said, his eyes closed and his hand still caressing my face.

"O-Oh, I'm sorry! I was mumbling again!" I said, a bit louder than I should've. Todoroki moved his hand to the top of my head, patting it gently, "It's okay, now sleep." He said, trailing off a bit. I smiled lightly as his breathing slowed and his arm became limp. His face was so calm and it made him look so much cuter. I scooted closer, wanting to cuddle like before.

I watched Todoroki's face as I gently slide my arm under his body. 'He didn't move at all, even his breathing pattern stayed the same.' I thought, surprised at how fast he fell to sleep. I smiled a bit, nuzzling my head into his chest. The scent of vanilla and burnt wood invading my nose, calming me enough to almost put me to sleep. Just as I was dozing of, my mom's voice came back and I opened my eyes quickly, giving up on falling back to sleep.

I slowly slide away from Todoroki, extra careful not to wake him up. I moved myself down to the foot of the bed, getting off and stretching. I walked over to my desk, being as quiet as I could. I turned on my lamp. I could see, just not the best and I didn't want to wake Todoroki with the ceiling light.

I crept over to my dresser, pulling out a new pair of clothes. I knew my drawers squeak, so I slowly pushed in the drawer, making the sounds as quiet as possible. A sigh of relief left my lips as I walked into my bathroom, turning on a shower. I dreaded every bit of it, but I had to take the blood soaked bandages off. I wanted to puke as the pealing sound entered my ears.

I rinsed the blood off my arm gently and stepped into the warm water. I scrubbed everything, making sure I didn't smell at all. I eventually finished and turned off the shower. I felt the cool air hit my body as I pulled back the curtain and stepped out. I grabbed one of my towels, wrapping it around me, hoping it would warm me up. I grabbed the smaller towel, rubbing my messing green hair, drying it off a bit.

I quickly slid on my boxers and shorts. I still hate the way I look, it's gross. I avoided looking at the mirror as I put on a light t-shirt. I hung up my towel still using the one for my hair. I looked up and saw Todoroki sitting on the bed, not looking at anything in particular. The lighting of the room made every one of his features look more prominent and I couldn't help but stare.

"Morning gorgeous." I was so embarrassed as I realized that slipped from my mouth. Todoroki looked at me, a light pink dusting his cheeks. "Morning cutie." Todoroki replied, making my cheeks burn just a bit more.

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