I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

70 ~ Delete it

Midoriya's POV

I sat and cried. I wanted to scream, but nothing but broken sobs came out of my mouth. After a while of crying, Aizawa's voice cut through, "Midoriya." All of the ugly sobs caught in my throat as even more tears burned in my eyes. An unpleasant pressure built up in my chest before everything slammed into me, making me cry even harder. "P-Please don't-t hate m-me! I-I-I di-didn't m-mean to get-t so mad!" I stuttered through my sobs, my voice breaking and quivering as I curled into an even tighter ball in Todoroki's lap. "I don't hate you and neither does Todoroki." Aizawa said bluntly, a object easily recognized as his hand placed on my covered head. I choked out a sob as I continued to cry. 

'They hate you. This is just pity.' My chest tightened and breathing got even harder, my sobs not making it any easier.

'You're pathetic.

'A Loser.'

'A Deku.' I shivered as my thoughts spat insults at me, tearing me down.

'Useless.'

'No one would ever actually want you.' I shook my head, moving my hands back to my ears, covering them as if it'd make the voice stop. I felt myself hiccup around my sobs painfully, my nose running with snot.

'Weak.'

'Worthless.'

'Fa-'

I felt the vibrations from Todoroki's voice in his chest. I couldn't make out what he was saying, but it was something to focus on. Tears still poured down my cheeks as I let go of my ears, letting my hands fall down to my sides. I focused on the vibrations that I couldn't make any sense of and my breathing ended up slowing. I shifted so my legs were around Todoroki's waist, my face stuffed into his neck. He smelled like him. Vanilla and campfire smoke. I felt myself hiccup again, my chest starting to hurt. I sat there in the halfy teen's lap, limp and tired. All I wanted to do was sleep; sleep and never wake back up. "There. See? All better. That's right, breathe. Good. Just like that. Much better." Todoroki spoke gently, the vibrations turning into words. "Great job, sugar cube. Just relax." I did as Todoroki said, letting my shoulders slump down.

"There you go. Shh. You're okay. You're doing great." Todoroki started to rub my back, making me melt into him. I moved my head from his neck to his chest, taking the blanket off my head but leaving it balled up in my fist and around my waist. I laid my cheek against his chest, staying pretty relaxed as Todoroki continued telling me encouraging words. I blinked slowly, my eyelids feeling like lead. "Tired." I mumbled, letting my eyes fall closed and stay that way. "Okay. Do you want me to lay with you until you fall asleep?" Todoroki asked, his hands still caressing my back.

I nodded, having absolutely no energy left. I felt Todoroki shifting around before he stood, lifting me with him. "You're still so light." Todoroki commented, taking the few steps to my bed. "Good." I mumbled, not really thinking before I spoke, holding onto the blanket Just enough for it not to fall. "We will talk about that after you take a nap." Todoroki replied, gently setting me down on what I assumed was my bed before getting in with me. I heard someone else moving around, making me pry my eyes open and look around. I found Aizawa walking to my door, shutting it behind him as we stepped out of the room. I relaxed again, closing my eyes again as Todoroki pulled us closer together. I found myself quickly falling into a peaceful sleep.

《 ♤ 》

I woke up alone and cold, but sweaty and in desperate need of water. I curled into myself, not wanting to get up. I tried wetting my mouth with my saliva, but it left a gross taste in my mouth. I groaned and sat up, dragging a blanket out of bed with me.  I felt unstable on my own two feet as I made my way out of my room, my goal being the kitchen. I got down the first two steps before my world started to spin and I found myself tumbling down the stairs.

I sat at the bottom of the stairs, blanket sprawled out around me. I found three sets of eyes staring at me as I pouted. I was sat on my butt, my legs open as my hands laid limply in between them. "I just wanted water." I mumbled out, carefully getting back up. I sighed, wanting to cry for no other reason than I wasn't in bed, sleeping. "Nope. I give up." I said to myself, letting myself fall again, laying on the floor with my blanket wrapped around me. "Uh, Midoriya?" I heard Aizawa call my name, sounding hesitantly worried. "Mmh?" I hummed, acknowledging him without actually having to talk. "Are you okay?" Aizawa asked, sounding a little more comfortable this time.

"No, but it's not like that's anything new." I murmured, rolling my closed eyes as I cuddled more into my blanket, trying to find so semblance of warmth. "Can we do anything for you?" Todoroki piped up, sounding like he was standing at my feet. "Water?" I asked, feeling worn out, mental and physically. "We can get you a glass of water."

"Please." 

Todoroki chuckled at my response, his feet sounding as he walked by my collapsed figure. I relaxed as I started warming up, quickly drifting back off to sleep. "-uku! Izuku!" I heard, a warm hand on my shoulder as I was shook awake.

"Uhm?" I looked up, Todoroki squatted down in front of me with with a glass of water in his hand, looking amused. "Do you still want this?" The bi-colored teen asked, his hand still on my shoulder. I sat up, rubbing my eyes, blinking slowly once, and then twice, before gently reaching for the water that made me drool. I swallowed it all in one go, handing the newly emptied glass back to Todoroki, before crawling forward a bit and laying my head on his legs, effectively making his knees fall to the floor. I laid my head on his lap, dragging my blanket back up to my shoulders. "Tired?" Todoroki asked, running his fingers through my hair. "Mmh." I hummed, not having the umpf to communicate like a normal person. "Good, 'cause we got that on camera." I'm pretty sure Mic said that as I felt an angry embarrassment cover my entire body.

I looked meeting Mic's yellow eyes as he covered his smiling face with this phone. "Delete it." I grumbled, sounding angrier than intended. "No way." Mic replied, hiding behind the phone. I huffed, rolling over so I was facing Todoroki's stomach. I heard Mic chuckle before whispering, "I was still recording." I opened my mouth, biting down. "Ow! Don't bite me! It was Aizawa's idea." Todoroki spoke. "Mmh." I hummed again, gently kissing the same stop I just bit. "That was cute, but kissing it doesn't make it better." Todoroki replied, petting my hair again. "It does when Recovery Girl does it." I mumbled, wrapping my arms around his waist, pulling my face closer to his abdomen. I felt Todoroki's muscles move as he laughed, calling me silly but not denying it.

I didn't try continuing the conversation, as my limbs left like lead and my eyelids wouldn't open. "It's okay to go back to sleep, its been a long day." Todoroki whispered soothingly, still running his long fingers through my messy green hair. I didn't waste a second as I relaxed, letting the dark blanket of sleep fall over me.

And wouldn't I regret falling asleep...

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