I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

10 ~ I'm Done

Midoriya's POV

My arm stung as the cool wind swept across it. I had already sat myself down on the cold, hard cement. 'It smells like rain.' I thought, leaning my head up towards the sky and taking a big breath in through my nose. 'I love the smell of rain.' I thought, closing my eyes.

It was calm, my mind clearer and quieter than normal. I finally felt at peace. 'That's kind of fucked up. Just as I'm going to die, I find peace. What BS.' I thought, not caring for anything anymore. I stood up and brought my arm up to eye level. A scab was just barely starting to form and I didn't want that. It hurt like none other, but I rubbed off the soft scab on each of the poorly carved letters. Like any other fresh and deep wound, it started bleeding quite badly.

I smiled as I watched the blood slip down and drip off my arm, holding back tears that would eventually fall anyways. I slipped off my shoes and grabbed the note from my right, front pocket, opening and rereading the few words on it. My face and feet were cold, my exposed left arm as well. My breathing was slow and calm as I slid the small piece of paper into one of my red shoes.

It only took a small leap to get myself over the railing and onto the ledge of the, very tall, dorm building. I looked up one last time. The sky was covered in large, dark clouds and the wind was quiet, cold, and soft, just being a small  breeze. The quiet was broke when I heard someone coming up the stairs, and quickly at that. "Great. " I sarcastically mumbled to myself. I wasn't seen at the elevator, and I don't think I was seen walking up the stairs.

'You know what? Whatever. Today has been too long to care.' I reasoned with myself. I closed my eyes, taking one foot off the ledge and pushing off with the other. I started falling, and I enjoyed the wind through me hair. 'Mom always loved my hair. She loved brushing through the mess it was. That always confus-' My thoughts were cut off and my breathing caught as I felt something wrap around my arms and ribs.

"AAHHH!" I screamed in pain, my eyes flew open and then immediately closed tightly. My ribs and back were still tender and having all my weight plus my momentum being push onto them hurt a lot. Not to mention the cuts on my arms and how much that increased the pain. 'Wait. What. The. Actual. Hell?!' I thought, not quite knowing what was going on.

"I agree young man. What The Actual Hell?!" 'Dammit. Fucking Aizawa caught me.' I thought, pissed and wanting nothing more than to continue falling. "Please, Aizawa. I'm begging you, just let me die." I pleaded, more irritated than anything. "Sorry, but no-can-do. If I did that, I think Todoroki here would murder me." Aizawa replied.

'T-Todoroki?!' My eyes flew back open, wider than they have been all day. I completely froze, I couldn't process what all was going on. 'He-he... Todoroki saw me jump?!' I felt my self being hoist up. "No! Let Me Go!" I screamed, regaining my composer. I struggled against the bonds, kicking and screaming. "Please! No! Aizawa! Please! I Don't Want to Be Alive Anymore! Please! LET ME GO!!" My throat was burning and my eyes were no better. "Stop struggling!" Aizawa yelled through his clenched teeth.

'It's hopeless, there is no way I can get out of this.' I thought, feeling tears fall from my eyelashes. I stopped struggling and just went limp. 'I couldn't care less anymore. I have been stopped twice now. How pathetic.' I thought as Aizawa continued pulling me back up. 'How come I can kill my own mother so easily,  but I can't seem to kill myself?' I thought, eager to escape Aizawa's capture gear.

I was nearly back at the top when I saw that there was no Todoroki on the roof. Aizawa grabbed me, pulled me over the railing, and let his scarf thing loosen. "You lied to me and I fell for it." I mumbled as Aizawa embraced me in a one-sided hug. I felt something hit my hair, and soon saw as the cement was being covered in water. It was raining. "He was the only one you asked for when you were recovering. I knew you had a soft spot for him and I used it to my advantage, and I apologize for it."

"Why? Why won't you let me die?" I asked, still refusing to hug him back. "Because I've been where you are and I remember what it feels like to be alone." This made me mad, just like it did when Todoroki told me that. "You're all the same. 'I've been where you are,' and 'it all gets better'. What a load of crap. Nothing gets better! You didn't kill your own Mother! None Of You Know What It Feels Like! STOP LYING TO ME!" I screamed, pushing Aizawa away from me.

"I don't want or need your help. Just go away." I said, standing up and walking to the door, leading back down stairs. "Believe it or not, there are people who care." Aizawa said, not trying to stop me. "Ha. You're funny." I said sarcastically. I was cold, wet, and barefoot. I took the stairs instead of the elevator, I didn't have the patience to wait.

I walked down to the common room and into the kitchen, catching unwanted attention. I opened the fridge, pulling a bottle of water out of it and chugging almost all of it. I turned around and found numerous of my classmates staring at me from the kitchen doorway. I put the cap back on the water bottle, looking at them. "What?" I asked my voiced laced with venom, wanting nothing more than to be left alone. "Y-You're soaked and y-you're w-wrist..." Denki spoke up and trailing off, his voice shaking and looking at my wrist.

I looked down at my wrist, it was still bleeding. I looked back up to Denki, making him gulp. "I-It's bleeding p-pretty bad." The electric blonde said, not willing to make eye contact with me. "Yeah? And? So Fucking What? 'Midoriya's Bleeding! Wow!' It's not like it's new news, so why don't you all just piss off?" I said, taking a step forward, making most of them back off.

All that were left in the way were Sero, Todoroki, Kirishima, and, most to my dismay, Kacchan. I looked at them all, wanting to kick them in the ass and go to my room. "Move. " I ordered, getting more and more irritated by the moment. "Excuse me? "Move"? That's all you have to say to me, no us, after you leave and come back with the word 'Murderer' engraved into your arm?! Not to point out, but you're soaked as well, meaning you were outside." Todoroki asked angerly, stepping up to me.

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