I Blame Me (Tododeku) [Completed]

45 ~ Angry Big Brother

Midoriya's POV

I started crying again as I refused Kacchan's offer. I felt like such a burden at this point. I tried to quiet my sobs, failing as they racked through my body. "Mido!" I heard Todoroki call and Kacchan standing up. I wanted to disappear as I curled further into Kirishima, pretty much stopping my breathing in an attempt silence my desperate crying. "Where is he?" I heard Todoroki ask quickly and sounding out of breath, making more hot tears slide down my tears. "Hey, panicking right now isn't going to help." Kacchan spoke, making a sob break through my silence.

"Hey, if you don't breathe, you're going to pass out. Try matching mine." Kirishima whispered, stopping his rocking, obviously trying go make sure Todoroki didn't hear either of us. "'Kay." I whispered back, matching Kirishima's easily, until he started slowing it further. "I-I can't." I cried quietly. "It's okay. Just breathe." Kirishima responded, starting to rock again. "I-It h-hurts." I wept, digging my nails into my palm. "I know bud, so let's wrap them okay?" I flinched as Kacchan suddenly spoke, sound like he was right next to me.

I shook my head, denying him again. "How about I do it? You don't have to do anything." I pretty much jumped out of Kirishima's hold when Todoroki's voice appeared on my right. I felt fresh warm tears fall down my cheeks as I pulled the towel further over my face. "Come here." Todoroki whispered, gently grabbing my waist as I let him lift me off of Kirishima. "Now, where do you keep the bandages?" Todoroki mumbled, keeping me in his arms as he bent down to the bathroom cupboards. "Hm, right were you do at the dorm, must be habit, huh?" Todoroki asked, wrapping his arms around me again as he stood up. I nodded slightly as I removed the towel from my head.

"Hey! Look! There's gorgeous!" Todoroki said, smiling at me. "Don't lie." I mumbled, knowing what I look like after crying like that. "I'm not." Todoroki said, setting me down on the toilet. "Yes, you are." I fought back. "Listen, you've always been, and always will be, beautiful to me." Todoroki said, bending down so that we were face to face. "Now, let's get these cleaned up and wrapped and then we need to tell Aizawa." Todoroki said, grabbing the gauze and bandages, taking my hand as he laid the antibacterial covered gauze onto my left arm. I felt tears build in my eyes as the stinging felt like fire and the thought of what could happen when we told Aizawa scared me. Todoroki wrapped my arm, holding it gently so my hand cupped his cheek.

"You scared me, you know that?" Todoroki whispered, closing his eyes for a moment before moving onto the right arm, which had a few more deep ones. "I'm sorry." I whispered back, just after Todoroki placed the gauze on my arm. Todoroki looked up at me and smiled lightly. "It's not you fault." Todoroki replied, going back to wrapping up my cuts. "Yes, it is." I said, looking at my shorts, right where the blood had fallen to when I had my arms against my chest.

"Do you want these wrapped too?" Todoroki asked, pointing to my shins. "They're doing better, but probably." I replied, remembering that there was little to no blood when I changed them earlier. "Okay." Todoroki said walking back over to the cupboard to get more bandages, wrapping my legs quickly. "Go change and clean up your chest. I'll call Aizawa." Todoroki said, getting into a standing position. "Wait! I-I'll call him." I called, looking down at me feet after standing. Todoroki smiled, "Okay." I waited for him to walk out before doing anything. Once he did, I quickly grabbed a washcloth, removing my shorts and boxers, wiping the blood away. I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waist, scampering over to my room.

I changed into another clean pair of boxers, lose sweats, and a comfortable t-shirt. I took a deep breath in and out before walking out of the door and down the hall. I pointed my head around the corner, seeing Todoroki, Kacchan, and Kirishima all seated in my living room. "I, um, I'm really sorry guys." I mumbled, catching the attention of the people there while I played with my fingers. No one said anything. I kept my head down until I heard someone get up, making me look up. I was hugged tightly as a familiar chest was in front of my face. "I'm just glad you're not dead." Kirishima said, picking me up a squeezing a bit tighter. I tapped his back a bit, silently telling him to let me go.

"Scare me like that one more fucking time and you will no longer be living alone. Period end of story, fucking deal with it, dumb-ass." Kacchan said, looking up from his phone, a glare shown on his face. "Yeah, sorry Kacchan." I said, knowing just how serious he was. "We need to call Aizawa." Todoroki said, looking up for a moment. That one look told me that waiting wasn't an option. "O-Okay." I responded, gulping nervously. I went to the bathroom, picking my phone up from the counter, where I left it when Kirishima and Kacchan got here. I stood there for a minute, not wanting to make anyone else worry.

I walked back out after taking a breath and calming my nerves. "So, he probably won't be needing me on stand by after this is what you're saying?" I heard Kirishima ask. "Pretty much." I heard Todoroki responded. "Is that really your decision though? What do you think he'll do when he loses even more of his goddamn freedom?" I heard Kacchan say. "Thanks for standing up for me Kacchan, but this time, it'd be my own fault." I said, finding Kirishima and Kacchan standing at the door, ready to leave. "But still. You know all to damn well what I think about this type of shit." Kacchan replied, looking a little more than just a bit annoyed.

"I know, but still." I said, trying to calm the blonde. "You're being too damn rough on yourself, Deku!" Kacchan yelled, his hands bundled into tight fists. "You were so fucking panicked earlier, not even the one sure fire way to calm you down worked! Like damn, that's just because you had small restrictions placed on you! What if they put even more huh?! What do you think'll happen then?" Kacchan yelled, a small amount of anger filled tears shown in his eyes.

I smiled lightly as I walked over to the explosive blonde, wrapping my arms around him. "Thank you, Bakugo. You two will be the first to know if plans change, alright?" I whispered, Kacchan using one arm to return the hug. "I swear to god, you Half n' Half bastard, if you do anything the stupid broccoli doesn't like, I will personally kick your ass to the moon." Kacchan warned, pulling me closer to him ever so slightly, before letting go, grabbing Kirishima's hand, and leaving. "Bakugo's like an angry big brother, it's almost sweet." Todoroki said, making me chuckle at the weird, but not stupid, thought. 'If only you knew, Todoroki, if only you knew.'

"So, Aizawa." Todoroki reminded, turning to me and pointing to the couch. "Y-Yeah." I stuttered, holding onto the small hope that my teacher won't do anything rash. I sat down on the couch, pulling up Aizawa's contact, clicking the small camera icon, deciding face time would be the best. The camera came up as my phone started ringing and I got nervous. I moved over a bit more, practically sitting on top of Todoroki. "Hello?" I jumped as Aizawa's face and rough voice appeared. "H-Hey Aizawa!" I said, trying to calm down as I had become quite the ball of nerves. "Uh, first let me just say that I'm really sorry and I didn't mean to." I said, thinking it would help.

"What happened?" Aizawa asked, knowing exactly what I was trying to do. "Well, you see, funny story." I chuckled, grabbing Todoroki's sleeve to help ground myself. "He cut." Todoroki said, no hesitation what-so-ever. "Now, before you say anything! It just kinda happened! I really didn't mean to! See, I was taking a shower and one thing lead to another and it's all still kinda hazy and I'm Sorry!" I explained quickly, my eyes filling with tears as I felt shame creep up on me. "So, what I got from your word vomit just now is that it wasn't completely intentional? You weren't entirely aware?" Aizawa asked, sending my heart into a panic. "Y-Yeah." I mumbled, leaning into Todoroki's shoulder, trying to cover my face. "Well, obviously, being alone isn't working, so why don't you come to stay with me and Mic starting tomorrow instead of what we originally planned?" Aizawa offered, pausing hesitantly. 

"B-But I still haven't- never mind." I started, deciding not to finish, knowing that arguing could only get me so far as I stuffed my face back into Todoroki's warm shoulder. "You'll be allowed out and all, but being alone doesn't work. I'm sorry, Midoriya, that's just how it is." Aizawa sighed, slouching back into the chair or whatever he was sitting in. I nodded in response, feeling tears slip from my closed eyes.

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