Loving Marianna

Chapter Nintey- Five

Wanting: nsfwish

After a night in Asgard Wanda convinced me to come back so we can have a therapy session together. As sad as I am to leave Thor again I don't want to leave things with Wanda the way they are so here we are in Dr. Maddex's office, sitting in awkward silence.

"Normally we do more private sessions before jumping into family and relationship sessions but I'm just glad you're willing to come back Marianna."

"And I'm glad you reached out Wanda." Wandas therapist Dr. Rivera or Carla says with a kind smile sitting next to Dr. Maddex behind his desk.

"So Wanda told me over the phone that she used her powers against you to search through your memories is that right Marianna?" Dr. Rivera asks. I nod my head fidgeting with my fingers as Dr. Maddex takes out his bowl of candy. Wanda gladly takes a piece and looks at me sideways when I don't.

"We didn't get to talk too much on the phone because I said we should do a meeting in person so do you want to tell me what happened before that?"

I hesitate a moment before speaking, "I was out with an old friend who I'm trying to rekindle a relationship with. He's stated before that he loves me. I made it abundantly clear that I am in love and loyal to my mates. He doesn't try to pursue anything more than friendship. Which Wanda should know now because once she called me and asked me to come home and I told her I'd like to stay out for a bit longer. She was clearly upset despite telling me to stay out so I went home and we started fighting about how I don't have enough time and I shouldn't be spending it with someone who loves me. We kept fighting I said I've never given her a reason to not trust me and then she dove in my head."

Wanda snorts leaning back in her chair shaking her head.

"Is that not what happened?" I ask turning to her incredulously.

"I just think it's funny how you left out the part where you were like I killed myself over you." Both of the therapists write furiously as the tension in the room grows.

"Maybe I wasn't ready to share that part."

"What happened?" Maddex asks.

"I was put through emotionally trying challenges and then was manipulated to think that all of my mates were leaving me and I tried to kill myself, or I did. I don't really know but yeah." I say awkwardly.

"Have you been evaluated to be institutionalized?" I tense up at his question but shake my head no.

"I was being manipulated and put through immense emotional turmoil. It was a proper reaction and would be more inclined to sign myself into a hospital if I didn't have a mental breakdown." He looks at me with sympathy before the both of them keep writing.

"Can we get back to us though?" I ask clearing my voice.

"Wanda you look like you've had something you want to say." Dr. Rivera says motioning for her to speak.

"I thought a lot about if I was going to say this or not. I don't want to hurt you but I think you're a narcissist." I scoff and sarcastically laugh with my fist in front of my mouth. The therapists look between us but don't say anything.

"I don't have enough time, I don't spend my time with the right people, and now I'm a narcissist. Is that it? Got anything else you want to add to the list? No? Okay, why don't you explain to me then how exactly I'm a narcissist, please, I can't wait to hear this." I unbelievably laugh leaning back resting my chin on my hand to look at her.

"Your need to be around people who love and adore you! Starting with Xavier going to Torval and King Avian and ending with Queen Samah when you already have 18 people who do that!"

"First of all Samah?! We've literally met once and have only talked politics and such like twice over the phone! As for the others I can not control their feelings or actions but I can control mine, I have no feelings for any of those people and I'm not going to stop talking to them to make you feel better!"

"That's what partners are supposed to do! I'm telling you I'm uncomfortable with the people you hang out with and you're supposed to respect me and not hang out with them!"

"I do respect you Wanda but respect doesn't equal total control over what I do! I am not going to remove people from my life to appease you! That's extremely unhealthy. There are certain circumstances in which a spouse gets to tell their spouse who to spend time with and who not to. This isn't one of them."

"Sorry to interject but I have to agree with Marianna. She is so in love with you that when she thought you all were leaving her she tried to take her own life. I'm not trying to use that as a manipulation tactic and I don't think Marianna was either, only remind you of the truth. You should be happy that she's finding happiness outside of your relationships. Now that goes without saying that if you begin feeling anything other then platonic for any of those people that it's up to you to be honest about that and sever the relationship with them before you cross a line you won't be able to uncross." Dr. Rivera says looking between us ending with a gentle smile. We both listen to what she has to say carefully thinking about what we're going to say next.

Dr. Maddex clears his voice then speaks, "I would also like to say that from a professional standpoint Marianna is definitely not a narcissist. And from what I've seen in magazines and such she's adored because she's kind, not because she goes seeking for it. And that's what makes a true narcissist." Dr. Rivera agrees nodding her head writing profusely.

I sigh before speaking up, "I'm glad we got that somewhat figured out but I'm upset too Wanda. You used your magic to violate my mind."

"I think violate is a little much."

I shake my head with a sarcastic laugh, "violate is exactly what it is. You didn't ask me didn't warn me, I didn't say hey babe go ahead and dig around in my head. You don't get to dress down the word to make yourself feel better about what you did." She bites her lip and looks down guilty as I look right at her glare boring into her soul.

"Calm Marianna." Dr. Maddex says reaching over his desk pushing the candies closer to me. I shake my head obviously pissed.

"I'm calm Doc."

"Why don't we take a little breather and come back in five." Dr. Rivera suggests getting up stretching. I nod and leave the room immediately heading for the bathroom. Locked.

I go and get the key from the front desk person and unlock the door. I see Wanda heading towards here and don't bother holding the door open for her.

As I go to lock the stall she bursts the door open and I cross my arms annoyed.

"I have to piss." I roll my eyes trying to close the stall door.

"I'm sorry Anastasia." She says lifting my hand to her lips. I pull my hand away and grab her by the front of her top pushing her against the stall wall making it shake. Her breathing picks up as I push against her.

"For what brat?"

She gulps before answering squirming under my hold, "I'm sorry for entering your mind."

"Mmhm." I mumble against her skin as I brush feather light kisses along her neck.

"I don't believe words baby, just action. Why don't you show me how sorry you are?" She whimpers as I push harder against her and I smirk watching her squirm.

"I-I'll show you." She says breathily gently cupping my face and kissing me. I grip her hair tightly and move my lips roughly against hers not wanting gentle, demanding more.

"I'll just have to take what I want."