Forever (After the war) [Discontinued Version]

Chapter 29 - Stupid Mistakes

TW - Mentions of grooming, implied rape (in dream) and PTSD.

"C'mon, you know you want it." My 'friend' said as he towered over me.

"Sawyer, I really don't. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do." I said as he backed me to the bathroom wall. I knew he wanted to do something similar to what that man did to me 3 years ago.

His eyes were full of the same evil and he was touching me like he did and I didn't like it but I couldn't say anything...not to him.

"Simple...just get on your knees..."

And then, the dream switched.

"C'mon, love...the kids aren't home." Neville smirked as he crawled on top of me.

"Neville, I really don't want to."

"I'm your husband and you're MY wife and you're supposed to do as I say." He said aggressively as he squeezed my cheeks.

"Neville, please, don't do this to me. I-I trusted you!" I pleaded as I tried to push him off.

"I'll do whatever I want with you. You're mine."

Just then, I woke up covered in sweat and feeling scared like I did all those years ago.

"Anne, are you okay, love?" My husband asked me tenderly.

"I-I'm f-fine." I stuttered as I started to tear up at the stupid thing I did at the age of 10.

"You can tell me."

"No."

"Anne-"

"I said no! Is that so hard for you to understand!? Just because I'm a woman doesn't mean that my no doesn't count!" I shouted at him.

"I'm taking my girls, fuck you!" I added as I took out their baby bags.

"Anne talk to me, what's wrong? A-And where are you going?" He asked worriedly as I started packing things for the three of us.

"P-Please d-don't leave. W-What did I do?" He asked as he choked back a sob when I didn't answer.

And that's when I was pulled out of whatever trance I was in and dropped the bags. As I burried my fingers in my hair.

What was I doing? How could I be so stupid? This is my Neville. He won't ever do something like that. How could I even dream such a thing?

I was angry at myself for making that stupid mistake I made years ago, the mistake of having that dream, the mistake of basing my actions on a dream. I was also angry at the therapist I went to after the war. So angry that I kicked the wall.

I couldn't handle my emotions and completely broke down. I was sitting on the floor hugging my knees as I cried.

"What happened, my love?" My husband asked as he sat down beside me and wrapped his hands around me as I lay my head on his shoulder while sobbing.

I decided to tell him once I calmed down a bit.

"Wh-When I was 10, th-that year H-Harry went to Hogwarts a-and I was with th-the Dursleys. I w-went to muggle school. A-And I used to fancy th-this boy named Sawyer who was around 16 at th-the time...One day, his f-friends were bullying m-me and calling m-me a freak because of m-my accidental magic, h-he stopped them and a-asked me i-if I was okay. I-I told him I was fine. A-And then I saw h-him around more often a-and h-he would talk to me. I-I thought he was m-my friend...I trusted him because I just needed someone."

I told him as I started tearing up when I reached the trust part. I was so stupid.

"A-And then one day, h-he was walking me h-home a-and h-he called me pretty. Of course I-I said thank you and blushed like a fucking idiot...H-He said th-that wh-when a guy calls you pretty, you're supposed to kiss him."

"Merlin, I was so stupid." I sighed as Neville listen to me carefully.

"Hey, it's okay. Go on." He said tenderly.

"So I kissed him on th-the cheek. B-But of course th-that wasn't his point. S-So h-he kissed me on the lips. A-And then h-he left after dropping me home. I-I thought h-he liked me too. I didn't even consider the age gap, that's just how stupid I was. So...at one point I-I started doing whatever h-he told me to. H-He started pulling me out I-in the middle o-of my classes. A-And h-he put me under th-this illusion that h-he loved me. Merlin, I did everything for him. Back then I didn't know that my opinion, what I thought and what I wanted mattered. That's just how I was raised."

"He was using you..." Neville said sadly as I nodded.

"He made me give him blowjobs, Neville. He said it was a one time thing. Merlin, I did it so much more than once. All because I-I wanted him t-to n-not stop liking me. A-And n-not because I 'fancied' him...but because I just wanted a friend after Harry left for Hogwarts...Miss Pennyweather, my violin teacher, she kept telling me that that older boys don't simply befriend younger girls like that...I didn't tell her about the whole grooming of course...I just told her that we were friends...Merlin, I should've listened to her."

"A-And right now I had a dream about th-that time a-and then it switched to you...and then I woke up and reacted like that...I'm so sorry, Neville." I added.

"Anne...you don't have to apologise. It wasn't your fault and you weren't acting stupid not right now and neither back then. Don't blame yourself for what happened to you, you were a child and you didn't know better...and that bastard took advantage of you." He said with a frown as he started to tear up. "You know I wouldn't ever do anything like that, right?" He added as he hugged me tighter.

"I know." I sighed before looking over at my daughters who were sleeping peacefully in their cradles. "I won't let you both have the life I had." I said to them before kissing their foreheads.

"Our girls will grow up to be strong...just like their mother." Neville said as he hugged me from the behind before kissing my cheek.

"I love the three of you so much." I chuckled before kissing him.

I'll do anything and everything to protect my girls.