Blood Lust

Ch.78

It's been a few days and Izuku was back home but still resting and my sister and his mother have been calling with wedding ideas.

Somehow they found out. Unfortunately I wasn't in a happy plan my wedding mood. Bakugo hasn't came back with Haruto yet and it was really worrying me.

I shuffled in the living room a blanket around my shoulders. I went to Izuku who sat on the couch watching a show. I sadly smiled at him and he patted the spot next to him. I sat down next to him as he put a arm around my shoulders. I cuddled into his side. He kissed my head.

"Kacchan will get him back." He whispered and I just nodded.

"Everyone is planning a dinner tonight you want to go? Cheer you up a bit?" He asked and I thought about it.

"I guess." I sighed.

"Alright." He said. I snuggled more into him.

Not noticing the gentle smile he gave me as he looked down at me.

(Lazy)

I stood in the closet not knowing what to wear. To be honest I don't feel like dressing up. I sighed my heart filled with sadness. I turned and left the closet just to lay on the bed and huffed in the pillow.

"Y/n? Why aren't you dressed?" Izuku asked and I just hugged the pillow tighter.

"I don't think I want to go anymore." I mumble into the pillow.

"Why's that?" He asked and I shrugged.

"To depressed." I said and I heard him in the closet.

"You should trust me you should come with you won't regret it." He said looking through my clothes.

"But Izuku." I whimpered.

"Come on put this on and let's go." He said putting clothes on my head. I sighed and got up.

At dinner

Let's be honest I wasn't into dinner. I just picked at my food not listening to any conversation. I wasn't even thinking I was just numb. After everything I did everyone I trusted and killed I still don't have him back.

I should be happy. I'm engaged and someone is looking for my son. I should be happy but I just feel worse then before. My heart hurt a big part of my life missing. Sure Izuku was a big part of it but Haruto took up most of it after he was born.

Not to mention there was a good chance Bakugo can't find him.

Everyone at the table laughed and joked around. I sighed putting my utensils down not hungry anymore. I put my chin on my hand. I never realized how attached I got.

Is that a good thing? Or do I love my son to much? Or is it the fact that I lost my normal purpose in life. Something that wasn't bad and people didn't hate me for.

My eyes got heavy with sleep even though I wasn't tired. I laid my head on the table. I really wasn't in the mood for this.

Maybe I don't deserve any of this. Maybe I'm really the monster everyone said I was. I mean come on. I murdered my dad in front of everyone on Tv. Maybe mom was my fault. I don't even deserve to be here with Izuku. I should be in jail. I should have stayed in jail or maybe even died. I sniffed tears falling quietly down my nose and temple.

Me and Izuku did everything in our power to get him back and I have a feeling it was for nothing.

Izuku noticed my mood and rubbed my thigh. I tensed not wanting to ruin his fun. I heard him sigh.

"Guys um I think we should do it now." He said to everyone and I heard say something and ask for their bill.

We sat while everyone paid. Soon everyone got up and I was about to but Izuku stopped me. I sat down and watched everyone rush out the restaurant.