Dark night of the soul

Chapter 11

Sarah's POV
*a few weeks later*
I wake up, but keep my eyes closed, I reach over, wanting the warmth of Jessica's touch, only to remember that she's not there. Jessica left two weeks ago for Florida where she will be filming a new movie, and I wasn't able to come because I'm in the middle of filming. I really miss her, I cry myself to sleep every night, wanting her here, she's the one that keeps me going. Although, there is a positive side to her absence I guess, you know, the fact that she doesn't force me to eat, and I don't have to hide my cuts all the time. I sigh and get up from the bed. I strip off my night ware, and I walk into the bathroom and weigh myself. I'm now 7 stone, I've lost two stone in three weeks, witch I guess I'm happy about, but it's not enough, I need to be skinnier. I look at myself in the portrait mirror on the wall. My hip bones, ribs, my collar bone etc. stick out. There is a gap between my thighs, and my face is pretty pale. I hate how pale I'm beginning to get, but I love the fact that my body is shrinking.
I turn on the shower faucet and climb into the tub carefully. Once I've finished washing I get out and dry my hair. I begin to run body lotion on my legs, then I move to my arms, making sure to miss out the fresh cuts I made. I put on a long top and jeans and make my way downstairs to make some coffee. I need caffeine badly right now.
I make myself a black coffee and put it in a flask because I needed to drive to work.