Dark night of the soul

Chapter 47

Sarah's POV
I'm beginning to get worried. Earlier Jess was mumbling to herself and I could hear her pacing the room, and when she spoke to me she sounded drunk?
Then I heard the door close and she hasn't been back for hours. I'm worried, I can't hear anyone. It must be time for a nurse to come in by now? What if I'm dead? What if I have finally let go?
I begin to panic until I hear a door open. "Good morning Sarah" my chirpy nurse Laurie says. I feel her hand on my forehead checking my temperature, then I feel a tube being inserted down my throat. Not again. I want to groan. I want to object. I know what the tube is, it's to feed me, I don't want to be fed, I'm going to be fat enough already being pregnant let alone being fed all the time on top of it. I try as hard as I can to move, and to my surprise I shift my arm so it grazes her leg. She jumps. "Sarah?" She grabs my hand. "Sarah if you can squeeze my hand, try as hard as you can" I do as I'm told and I put all of my energy into squeezing her hand and I do. She gasps again. I hear her walking out of the room then she comes in speaking to someone. "Yes, well first she moved her arm and she touched me then I asked her to squeeze my hand and she did" she explains. Her and a male carry on talking then they say something about 'trying what they tried yesterday?'
I feel the tube being pulled from my mouth and they start to talk to me. "Listen to me Sarah, if you want to get up right now, I'm going to need you to try as hard as you can to open your eyes. Think of the most positive thing you can, think about your baby, your wife, come on Sarah we all believe in you" he says. I try as hard as I can but I just can't. But I will not give up. I try over and over again, and then my eyes slightly flutter open but shut almost instantly. "Well done Sarah, now I need you to try and keep your eyes open a bit longer sweetie" Laurie says. I try again and I do it. I fucking do it!!
The light hurts my eyes, I look at the two people in the room. Laurie does not look like what I thought she would. She's young with shoulder length brown hair and brown eyes. She has a lovely figure and beautiful pale skin with pink cheeks. "Hi Sarah" she says "h-hi" I manage to get out. I look down at myself and I notice a big-ish bump. "Holy shit" I whisper to myself in shock. "I'm so fat" I think out loud. The nurse and doctor chuckle. "Well you are three and a half months pregnant" he explains. "Wait, I was in a coma for two and a half months?" I'm shocked. It didn't seem that long. "Okay miss, could you please try to sit up?" She doctor asked. My body is so stiff, but I still manage to do it. I sit up and stretch my whole body. "Ahh I've needed to do that for a while" I say.
"Considering you have only just come out of a coma, you will need to stay in here a few more days just so we can keep and eye on you and the baby to see how you two are getting on, is that okay?" The doctor asks. I nod, "would you like some food or a drink?" Laurie asks, "could I please have some lunch? I'm famished" "sure thing" she says and they both walk out of the room.
When the door shuts I push the bed sheets off me and swing my legs off the bed. I rest my feet on the cold floor then I slowly stand up, keeping myself up by holding onto a chair. I attempt to walk but my legs instantly go weak and I nearly fall over. I get back into bed, I don't want to fall flat on my face on the first day.
The door opens and I expect it to be Laurie but it's Jess. She has her sun glasses on and her head is down and she hasn't noticed me yet. She sits down and she takes paracetamol. "Afternoon my dear" I say with a chirpy voice. She jumps at my voice then her face lights up. "Sarah!!!" She shouts and runs up to me and kisses me all over. "I've missed you so much" she says "I've missed you too princess" I say.