Dark night of the soul

Chapter 127

*Sarah's POV*
After picking a fight with the lady at the front desk, trying to intimidate her so I can leave, I finally calm down enough to let Betty show me around.

"...and here is your room. This is Auburn." She says and leaves. "Hi" I smile. "Sarah fricken Paulson" she gawks. "Yah" I chuckle slightly and sit on my bed. "So, how long have you been here?" I ask trying to start a conversation.

"Well, I've been coming here for the past two years but this time I've been here for three months." She explains. "Jeez I'm sorry, that must be pretty crap" I laugh and she nods. "You get used to it, the hardest part is making friends then watching them get better and leave." She explains.

Auburn is pretty with short strawberry blonde hair and hazel eyes. She said that she was only twenty four years old and she's trying to recover so she can pursue her dream of becoming a doctor.

We talk whilst I unpack, until it's time for dinner. "You can sit with me if you like?" She offers and I nod.

We walk over to the cafeteria where the workers fill our trays. "I didn't expect the food to look this good" I laugh. "Well, it does cost a lot of money to stay here."
I sit down with my dinner and Auburn introduces me to her friends.
"Hi guys, as y'all should know, this is Sarah Paulson. Sarah this is Molly, Audrey, Jenny, Meredith and Bianca." She smiles, pointing to each of the girls. "Hi" I say shyly.
"Auburn, I've noticed that there aren't any men around. Is this just a woman's facility?" I wonder. "Yep, this is a rehab centre for women that self harm" she explains.
I pick at my dinner, not feeling entirely hungry. I tell the girls that I'm tired and excuse myself. I walk to the front desk. "Excuse me" I say and the woman glares at me. "Round two?" She says in a snotty tone. "Actually I came to apologise and ask if I can use the phone?" I try to be polite as possible, with hope that she'll let me call my wife. "No phone calls after 6pm" she says and I walk away.

How could Jess do this to me? Just put me in this place with no warning, no goodbye. I didn't even get to say goodbye to my children.

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*Jessica's POV*
I walk back upstairs because I hear one of the children crying. As I reach the top of the stairs I see somebody lying on the floor which makes me jump. I turn on the landing light, revealing Sarah's body. "Shit" I curse. "Sarah" I shake her, trying to make her gain consciousness. "Sarah" I say louder. I see a knife next to her hand that is practically dripping with blood. No, no, please no. Not again.
I run to the Housephone and call an ambulance. After I've called then ambulance I call Amanda who only lives a few blocks away. "Amanda, I need your help. Can you please come and watch the children or take the children to your house?" I ask in a panicked tone. "Yes, of course, Jess what's happened. Are you okay? Is Sarah okay?"
"I'll tell you when you get here" I say and slam the phone down. I run back upstairs and tend to Sarah's cuts, putting pressure on them so she doesn't loose anymore blood. I gasp at what she's done to herself. How could she ever hurt herself this much?

I hear loud knocks at the door, it's Amanda. "What's happened?"
"It's Sarah, I've had to call an ambulance." I cry, not able to get the rest out. I point upstairs. She runs upstairs and gasps. "Sarah!" She cries.

The paramedics get here and I climb in the back of the van with them. Please be okay, please be okay.

When we finally arrive at the hospital, I'm asked to wait in the waiting room. This is all too familiar. 

***
Hours later, I go home to change and pic the children up. Amanda must be exhausted.
Whilst I'm home, I call up Doctor Marren, the doctor I called up months back about getting Sarah help. Unfortunately this is what it has come to.