Dark night of the soul

Chapter 85

*Sarah's POV*
I park outside and take Ava out of her seat. I see Zachs car in the driveway.
"I'm home" I shout.
"Where the bloody hell have you been?" Jessica asks. She has blotchy eyes. "I went to see Kai at the hospital because I didn't know how long you would be, why what's wrong?" I say beginning to get worried. "I went to the prison, I needed to let all of my anger out on him and he told me that he sent someone to take Ava..." She explains. "That was Jack, he came earlier and he said that he was going to protect us rather than hurt us."
Jess turns on her heel and walks over to the house phone.
"Paulson why didn't you tell me?" Zach says to me. "Not you as well?" I huff. lily already knows, now Zach? Can it get any worse? I shrug my shoulders and keep my head down. "I'm going to put Ava to bed then I'll serve dinner, do you want some Zach? I made lasagne." I ask him hoping he'll say yes, I cannot sit in a room with just Jess after all of this, it'll be so awkward. "Well Paulson it is the one thing you make really well so I'll take you up on that offer" he smiles.
*2 hours later*
Zach has just left and Jessica still hasn't spoken to me. I have apologised multiple times but she won't listen. I suppose it's just a matter of waiting. She's just in shock that's all...
'Silly little Sarah, she's not talking to you because she hates you!' The voices scream. "No stop it" I say under my breath tapping my head with the palms of my hands. 'She's going to leave you to be with HIM' they shout. "NO" I shout back tearing at my hair. "NO NO NO NO" I carry on.
Jess rushes into the room as I'm cradled on the floor tugging at my hair. She grabs my wrists. "No Sarah stop this, what's happened honey?" She try's to soothe me but all I do is fight back.
"Why did you tell them that you don't want me, why can I not be as good as him?" I ask with tears staining my cheeks.

*Jessica's POV*
The words pound into my head. What on earth is she talking about? I try to stop her from ripping out her hair but all she's doing is resisting. She pushes me away. "I'm sorry that I'm such a mess Jess, I'm sorry that I can't do things for you that other people can, please just stay with me I will try to be a better person than him. I will prove that you should love me more than you should love him" she pleads. "Okay Sarah okay baby, come on I believe you lets go to bed okay?" I try to coax her to the bed. At first she's hesitant but she takes my hand and I help her stand. I escort her shaky body to the bed where I dress her in a large top and I lie her down. I fetch her a glass of water and ask her to take her anxiety pills with it to calm her.
Almost instantly she is asleep.
I can't stop thinking about her words. Is she going crazy? Who is telling her all of this nonsense?