Dark night of the soul

Chapter 141

*Sarah's POV*

What if I can't do this? What if I fail again?
Can I do this without her?

We approach the door and there waiting are all of the friends I have made during my time here. Rita moves towards me and embraces me in her arms.
"If you ever need anything I'm a phone call away Paulson" she says strictly but I know she means it from the bottom of her heart.
I squeeze her then we let go of each other.

I walk towards my friends who all give me a group hug, smothering me.

I say goodbye to each of them.

"Oh Bianca, I'm going to miss you so much, you always make me laugh mother" I mock her, "you better keep in touch with me" I laugh.
"Oh fuck off Paulsie, why would I want to do that?" She gives me her evil laugh that makes everybody chuckle.

(Bianca is based on my fav drag queen Bianca Del Rio, go and watch Bianca Del Rio's best moments and you'll understand how funny she is☺️😂)

"you bitch" I laugh giving her a tight hug.

I go through each of my friends, saying goodbye when I finally come to Auburn.

Oh Auburn.

I take her hand and move her away from the chaos of the other women.

"I saved the best til last" I break the silence but all she can do is give me a weak smile.
"Auburn, I'm going to miss you so much, you've become an important part of my life. I'm not going to leave you here, I will come and visit regularly and I'll make sure to call. You're going to be okay, I'm going to make sure of it."

"Sarah, can I ask you for a favour before you leave?"

"Of course"

"Will you kiss me just one last time.."

*Jessica's POV*

Sarah is coming home today and I couldn't be happier. Fortunately for me, I searched the house from top to bottom and I eventually found the objects she hid that she uses to harm herself. Not anymore. This is it for Sarah, from here on she will be better and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure of it, she cannot go through anymore pain.

I arrive in the car park and set up the kids buggy. I put Ava at the back, as she is bigger than Kia, and I wheel them over to the entrance.

As I walk in I see a group of women standing in the reception. I recognise most of them from my visits.
I wonder where Sar is, she said that she'd be waiting here. Just as I'm about to sit down I see Rita, Sarah's counsellor so I approach her.

"Hi Rita, do you know where Sarah is?"

"Hm, last time I saw her she was saying goodbye to Auburn. She wanted privacy with her because she was very close to Auburn." She explains.

"I'm sure she was" I mutter under my breath, unable to take the thought of Sarah sleeping with her out of my mind.
I try to shake off the thought and I sit down in the waiting area. Kai begins to cry so I take him out of the pushchair and I sit him on my lap. He's hungry.

I begin to feed him, then I wind him and lay him back in the buggy.
By the time I'm finished, Sarah still isn't anywhere to be seen. I begin to get suspicious and as jealous as ever. What is she doing?

A familiar face approaches me and starts to talk in that voice you use whenever you see a baby.
"Omg look at the little things, ello gorgeous little children. I'm aunty Bianca" she smiles as Ava takes her finger in her hand.
"Please let me keep them" she laughs.

That's not a bad idea.

"Bianca, would you mind looking after them while I go an hunt down Sarah?"

"Of course, hurry back or else I might just have to run away with them" she winks and I laugh as I walk off.

I pace the hallways, searching the place for my missing wife.

Where could she be?

I make my way to her room and hope that she's in there. I open the door and walk in.

Oh Sarah...