Dark night of the soul

Chapter 27

Sarah's POV
"And I want you to be happy again, I want the best for you Sarah, so will you please go to your therapy session tomorrow?" Jess asked, trying to convince me.
I have a session tomorrow at 4.30pm and I've kind of changed my mind about going. What if my therapist thinks I'm weird?
"What if they think I'm crazy? Or what if-" "baby, don't think about the bad what ifs think about the good ones. What if these sessions help you?"
"You're right. I just need to go in there with a positive attitude" "exactly, you can do this baby, I'm going to help you ever step of the way"
I smile and get up from the island in the middle of the kitchen. "Hey, how about we go out for dinner tonight?" I ask "really? Sure lets go baby"
We both head upstairs to get ready. I put on my navy blue dress that has lace detail on the back and my nude heels. Jess puts on her black tight dress (like the one she wears in coven) and red heels. Once we've finished getting ready, we head to The restaurant that Jess took me to when she proposed to me.
We wait to be seated by the young waitress. She comes back and escorts us to a private booth. "What would you ladies like to drink then?" She asks "I'll have red wine please" Jess says "same for me please" and she hands us our menus and walks to the bar.
After our meal, we decide to take a slow walk around the block, then we would go back to our car and drive home.
We walked along the nearly deserted pathway hand in hand. There weren't many people or cars about. We began to approach a bunch of teenage boys who looked pretty drunk. When they saw us they began sniggering. "Ew look at those lesbians" one whispered loud enough for us to hear. "Look at the age difference" another said. I looked at Jess who had her head down in shame. I've had enough of people like this. "You know what!" I raise my voice, and they look at me. "The real world has gay people in it, and if you lot are too childish to understand that, I suggest you go back to pre school." "Oh look who it is lads, it's miss Paulson" the guy at the front of the group said. "Urgh it's the attention seeker!" They all laughed. "Listen, Sarah, you're not better than anyone else, you don't mean anything to anyone, and you hardly have any fans. I suggest that you go back to pre school as well and get good grades and get a job that you're actually good at. Stupid bitch. Don't fucking tell me what to do!" I flinch at his words. I walk away in shame pulling Jess along with me. "GO ON GO CUT YOURSELF YOURE WORTHLESS ANYWAY!" The same boy shouts after us.
Tears roll down my face. I'm such a disappointment.
I walk quickly I front gripping onto Jessica's hand. We make it back to the car in about five minutes. I slam the door shut and just sit there with no emotion on my face.
"Sarah, don't listen to them, none of that was true!" Jess tries to convince me. I keep my eyes facing forward and I turn on the engine.
I drive off like nothing has happened. I'll address the issue when I'm alone...

Jess tries to comfort me the whole way home, but it doesn't work.
I don't know why everyone hates me. What have I ever done to them? To anyone?
I guess I'm just exactly what people say I am. Worthless.