Dark night of the soul

Chapter 126

*Sarah's POV*
I sit there in the bathroom, cradling my head in my hands. "How can he be back? Jess killed him" I mumble to myself through tears. "Did she kill him?"

I hear one of the children crying and I make my way to their room. I walk closer to Kai's cradle but the figure standing next to it makes me stop in my tracks. I scream.

I squeeze my eyes shut and when I open them, the figure is gone.
I hear Jess running in. "What's wrong, are the children okay?" She panics.
"He was just standing right there, where is he, I don't understand..."

Jessica leads me back to our bedroom and sits me down on the bed. "Sarah, what's gotten into you? You're hallucinating, you talk to yourself, I need to understand what's going on in order to help you" she says harshly. I don't answer. I don't know how to answer. "Sarah!" She shouts.

"I'm going back to bed.." I say blankly and lie down. She huffs and walks off somewhere, where I don't know.

***

Again I find myself in the bathroom, distinguishing the thoughts through my blood. How did it ever get this bad? How could I let myself become the ruins of that man.
I sit there, on the floor, looking down at the small puddle of blood I've left. The kitchen knife was in my right hand, in the other a cigarette, unable to cope with the thoughts and hallucinations by myself.

I feel so empty.

I become queazy, unable to stand up straight. I wobble down the hallway so I can go downstairs, to try and find some bandages to compress the many wounds I had made.

***

"Hi Mrs Paulson, you're awake" a chirpy woman, with a thick American accent greets me. "Where am I?" I ask the stranger. "You're at Timberland Knolls residential treatment centre. We're a rehab facilitation that deals with self mutilation patients. I'm Betty." she says with a toothy smile. "What!" I shout, unable to contain my anger.