Dark night of the soul

Chapter 36

Sarah's POV
as I make my way into the doctors surgery, I begin to get more nervous. What if I have lost the baby? I wouldn't be able to cope, I have grown to love my baby. I've lost sleep over the thought, I haven't slept for 7 days straight. The bags under my eyes are heavy and I'm feeling so drained, but I jut can't sleep, especially because I can't get out of my head that I've been raped twice by the same man. It's killing me. I just want my baby to be okay.
"Miss Paulson?" The doctor calls out my name breaking me from my thoughts. I walk into the same room I was in only a few months ago. "So what can I do for you miss?" He politely asks. "Can you please check to see if I'm still pregnant, I was bleeding the other day and I'm worried" I explain. I don't want anyone to know about what happened. "Sure I'll take some tests. Could you just lean back onto the bed and pull up your top just to reveal your stomach?" I do as I'm told and he puts a cold gel on my stomach then scans my stomach. He looks on the computer and points at a little dot. "We'll miss, your baby is still with us, it's there" I tear up. That's my baby. I've just seen my baby, my survivor for the first time. "Would you like me to print out a photo?" "Yes please" I say and my eyes light up. He hands me the photo, but gives me a sympathetic look. "Miss, if you don't mind me asking but are you okay? You looked stressed and tired?" "Yes I'm fine, I've just not been getting much sleep from worrying about this" I say patting my stomach. He nods and I thank him for his help and I leave.