Dark night of the soul

Chapter 53

Sarah's POV
I wake up In the middle of the night with a horrible itchy feeling on my skin. I looked over at Jess who was fast asleep. I quietly got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom and pulled out my shiny companion.
I just sat there on the toilet seat staring at it between my fingers for a while, thinking about the consequences, then I finally pressed it into my skin.
As soon as I felt the sharp, cold metal dig into my skin, I instantly felt a wave of relief.
Blood began to form and it rolled down my arm and fell into droplets on the floor.
I've needed this for such a long time. My whole past flashes through my mind in an instant which makes me create more cuts on my arms.
I had made around 13 cuts. I needed to stop. After a few more, I gave up. I cleaned my arm and wrapped it in tissue so that the blood didn't go through the material of my jumper.

I go back to bed, only to find that again I had trouble sleeping.
I went downstairs and made myself a cup of coffee and I watched RuPaul's drag races season two.
I had made myself a bowl of popcorn. While watching the series, I started throwing popcorn at the t.v objecting, and also because of the fact that I hated it that all of the men on there were a lot prettier than me. So not fair.
At about 7:30 I heard Jess walking down the stairs. "Morning sweet, do you want some breakfast?" I ask her, "I'll make it, what would you like?" She says. "Urm, whatever you're having"
She goes into the kitchen and prepares our food. When she is done she sits next to me and hands me Scrambled eggs on toast. "Oh god you're not watching this again are you?!" She laughs. I playfully punch her arm. "Hey! It's good show!" I say pretending to be offended. "Whatever you say! Anyway, are we still going shopping?" She asks. "Sure, only if you are feeling better though" "yep" "then let's get ready J."
After we have finished eating we go upstairs to get ready.