Dark night of the soul

Chapter 91

*Sarah's POV*
(Sarah is wearing the dress that is in the photo attached)
We all sit around the large dinner table. It's quite awkward. "Guys, we can talk about normal things you know? This dinner party was to celebrate the fact that after tomorrow ill never have to see him again and also to celebrate the fact that I'm moving on so damnit have some fun you old fuckers" I laugh. "Okay Sarah's back" Amanda's husband David says and everyone chuckles.
"Well as you all know that me and Hamish sorted everything out we have decided to carry on with the wedding" Lily says pleased but she doesn't look up at any of us because she knows what we are all thinking. I can't believe she went back to that son of a bitch in the first place I mean she's so much better than him... How could a woman like her fall for a gobshite.
(Please note that I have nothing against Hamish this is just for the story don't get your nickers twisted)
"Look Lil, we're all behind you in any decision that you make but just remember that if he pulls a trick like that again we're all after him" I say.
"So will there be any coconut cake there?" I wink at her knowing full well that she will deny my request. "You know what Paulsie, I'll order some on just for you if you stay clean from now until my wedding" she says and everyone's eyes are on me. I gulp. "When is the wedding?" "4 months from now"I gulp again knowing  that I haven't gone that long before. "Deal" I say. New start. New me. This is it.

*a few hours later*
We say goodbye to the last of our friends, Amanda and David. "Good luck tomorrow honey, we're rooting for you" Amanda says hugging me and pecking me on the lips. Our friendship is so tight. "Yeah good luck Paul, you'll do great" David says giving me a friendly kiss on the cheek and he does the same to Jess.

We go upstairs and check on the children who are fast asleep in their cribs one room away from us. We walk into our room to get ready for bed. It's a big day tomorrow.
"Where were we" Jessica says grasping my hips and pulling me close. "I didn't expect that" I chuckle. "Well that makes us both full of surprises today" she smiles and kisses me softly.
The kiss deepens and she slowly pulls the zip on the bottom of my dress down, not coming into contact with my skin once, making my body ache for her. I step out of the dress and playfully kick it across the room. Jess stares at me in what seems to be awe. "Your turn" I say seductively undoing the buttons on the front of her dress. I skim my hands down the middle of her cleavage ever so softly that a quiet but somewhat harsh breath escapes her mouth.
I take a gulp knowing full well what's about to happen. I'm nervous, the other times it's brought back...bad memories.

She leads our half naked bodies over to the bed and lays me down. She begins to kiss down my neck searching for my sweet spot. "Ah" I let out and there it is. She's found it and she leaves her mark as if I was her territory.

She moves her head further down and just as she wraps her mouth around my inner thigh we hear cries.

"Fuckkk" I whine. "I'll go it's okay" Jess says grabbing her robe.
I wait for around five minutes before my eyelids to become heavy and my breathing gets slower. I close my eyes for a split second.

"Morning sweetheart" Jess says. I flutter my eyes open. "What no I've only just closed my eyes I say. "Fuck Jess I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you tonight" I say apologising. I know how much she needed that one night...