Dark night of the soul

Chapter 58

Jessica's POV
it's 7am and I'm exhausted. I couldn't sleep all night. Sarah went to bed at about 2am because I basically forced her to. She needs her sleep.
I slowly stand up and make my way to the kitchen for some food.
When I stand I feel a heavy weight push the bottom of my stomach.
I have some food then I get into some different clothes.
The pains are now every five minutes, and they are more powerful than they were before. What is going on?
At 9:30 I wake Sarah up. "Sarahhhh, saraahhh" I whisper gently shaking her shoulder. "Mmm" she mumbles. "Come on baby you need to get up its 9:30" I say in a soft tone. She yawns and slowly opens her eyes. "Mm no" she says then closes her eyes again. "Okay, I'll give you thirty minutes" I say and I leave the room. I put my shoes on to drive to the shop. I open the door and the view takes me by surprise. There is about one foot of snow covering the streets. I walk back inside knowing that I will not be able to drive in this weather.
I make hot chocolate for me and Sarah and take it up to her. I sit in our bed with a large blanket and magazines, this is my Sunday sorted.
I have a hot water bottle leaned against the pillow which is keeping it against my back. I took another tablet this morning, but they don't seem to be working.
The pain is becoming consistent making me let out harsh growls from time to time. I'm trying to be as quiet as I can because Sarah is still in bed, and she needs as much rest as she can get.
I decide to stand up and walk around to ease the pain, that's all that seems to be working right now.
Maybe a bath will help. I run a hot bubble bath and slowly lower myself in. The heat feels lovely against my skin making me relax instantly. I sit in the bath for about half an hour then I empty it a bit and fill it up with more hot water.
I hear the bathroom door open and I see Sarah walk in. "Oh it's this kind of party is it?" She says. "I laugh at her joke. "Sleep well?" I ask "yeah thanks you?" "Yes thanks" I lie, I didn't sleep whatsoever. "Mind if I join you?" She asks. "Sure doll."
She undresses and slowly eases herself in front of me leaning her back against my front.
I take the soap and rub it around her shoulders and arms rubbing all the tension and stress from her body. "Ah that feels amazing" she comments. I run my fingers down her right arm then down her left. I feel long lumps on the inside of her arm. I turn her arm over and inspect it. Cuts? "Sarah, you told me that you stopped this" I say angry, but upset. "It's not that easy Jess, I've tried okay, and I'm still trying. I'm eating properly now, I just need to figure out how to control this Jess. I need time" she explains. I drop the subject not wanting to push her. We sit there for about 20 minutes then we get out. "Wanna go for a drive?" She asks. "We can't, haven't you seen the weather?" I ask "no" she says confused then she goes to the window. "Holy shitballs!" I laugh at her comment. "Hey! You can't use that word!" "What are you going to do about it cane me sister?" She winks. We both start to laugh then we dry our selfs and go into the bedroom to get dressed.