Dark night of the soul

Chapter 94

*Sarah's POV*
"Hey guys I'm here to pick up my children" I hear Lily shout. She found the key underneath the doormat then. 
Me and Jess go downstairs to get the kids ready.
"Okay so the babies food is packed in this part, the nappies are in here. Now if Ava begins to cry then it's because she's either hungry or tired but Kai just likes to be held when he cries. When you put them in their cribs make sure that you don't put any pillows in there or any heavy blankets because they could suffocate and-" I rambled on until Lily stopped me. She placed her hands on my shoulders. "Sarah, I look after my other friends children all of the time. I'm not dumb, I know what to do and you have nothing to worry about okay? Now go and have a great night out and don't even bat an eye about the kids. This is yours and Jessica's night off, you guys deserve it." She says hugging me. I sigh. "Thank you so much Lil."

After Lily and the kids leave me and Jess continue getting ready.
Once we're ready we make our way to a fancy restaurant. Jessica looks stunning. She's wearing a blue low cut dress with her hair in messy loose girls but she still looks elegant. Absolutely beautiful. (She's wearing the dress in the first photo)
Then there's me... I decided to wear a longer dress, seems as I only self harmed yesterday on my thighs, I didn't want those to show. God, I look so fa- no Sarah. This isn't you trying to get better is it? I questioned myself. You love this dress and those killer heels (she's wearing the dress and shoes in the second picture) and your hair. Girl your hair looks great and you know it.
I sigh. My efforts to cheer myself up worked ever so slightly. But I was taking baby steps. I have to be patient. Although, I have to admit, my hair did look freakin great today.
"Annddd we are here" Jessica smiles pulling into the parking lot in front of the restaurant.
As we entered we are approached by a handsome young man. "Hello ladies, do you have a reservation?" He asked politely giving us a wide smile. "Reservations for Lange and Paulson" Jess returned his smile. "Ah yes, right this way" he said and we followed him to a beautiful, candle lit table for two. "Here are your men-" he began but dropped them in the process. I giggled with him rather than at him, making him feel less uncomfortable. "Ever so sorry, here are your menus, would you like to order your drinks now before your meal?" "I will have a red wine" I say scanning the drinks menu. "I'll have the same please" Jess said and he walked off to fetch our drinks
"Thank you!" I called after him as he left. "Bless him" Jess smirked. "Waiter, I thought you had to be a certain age to be a waiter, he looks like a pre-pubescent teen" I chuckled to myself. Oh I am funny.
The same young lad brought out our food and I stared at what I call a nightmare. The plate was piled with food. I couldn't possibly eat this much.
"Baby steps" Jess said cupping my hand in hers. I nod and smile and I take a bite of my lasagne and I practically had an orgasm from how good the food was. "Woah Paulsie slow down, you need to save some of that for later" Jess winks at me and I'm shocked. Did Jessica Lange really just say that?