Dark night of the soul

Chapter 71

Jessica's POV
it's 1pm and Sarah wants to have a bath. I run the bath and help her undress. I hold her up so she doesn't fall over then she sits down and leans her head against the back of the bath and puts her arms up on the sides. I get her two towels and a flannel from the airing cupboard. I'm about to hand her the flannel when I notice a blistered mark on her wrist. Her eyes are closed so I move closer to examine the burn like mark. "Sarah what the fuck is that?" I say in an angry voice. I can't believe she has done this! Especially when she is a week away from giving birth.
"What's what?" She asks not looking up once. "What burn on your wrist?" She sits up quickly and shoves her arm into the water. "I-i burnt it o-on the oven" she stutters. I know in a split second that she is lying. "You're lying" I say. Tears start to fall from her eyes and she sits back again and ignores me. "Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" I say loudly. She carries on ignoring me.
I storm out of the room and walk downstairs. I take my phone from my bag and dial a number. If she won't help herself I will get her help.
"Hello?" A man says. "Hello, I'm Jessica Lange, I'm calling about getting special help for self harm" I say. "Is this for you or someone else?" He asks. "Someone else, her name is Sarah Paulson. I've tried everything to help her, I've organised counselling sessions I've tried as much as I can but she just will not help herself and she will be giving birth next week." I explain. "Right, we are able to help Mrs Paulson when she is admitted to the hospital due to giving birth we will be able to take it from there. If the self mutilation is very bad she may have to go to rehab unless she is able to stop." He explains. My heart breaks for Sarah. Of course I don't want her to have to go to rehab, but if it will help her get better then it is for the best. "Okay thank you doctor" I say and we say our goodbyes.
I sigh, could things get any worse?
I hear Sarah walking around upstairs. The next thing I know I see Sarah making her way into the kitchen with a large bag. She is wearing leggings and a long grey jumper. "Where are you going?" I ask concerned. "I'm going to stay at Lils for the night her and Hamish have had an argument and he's left" she says. "What? Left her for good or walked out on her?" I ask worried for Lily. "I'm not sure, she was too upset to talk on the phone, come with me if you like" she says. I'm surprised she doesn't hate me for storming out. "Okay, let me go and pack a bag, I'll be down in a moment" I say and head upstairs.
On the way to Lily's we stop off at the shop and we buy ice cream, more chocolate covered crisps, wine and chocolate.
We arrive at Lily's and we let ourselves in with the key that is underneath the doormat. We walk into the living room to see Lily curled up on the sofa with a box of tissues on the floor and pretty woman on the TV.
"Oh Lily" Sarah says and she sits her up to hug her. "He-he just left Sar. We're meant to get married next month and he just left me" she cried into Sarah's shoulder.
I sit on the other side of Lily rubbing her back. "I'll get some glasses and spoons for the ice cream then you tell us what happened okay lil?" She nods

I bring back the things and we listen to Lily explain what happened.
"Well, last night we went out to a club with a few friends and I went to the toilet and when I came back he was dancing with a woman, at first I didn't think anything of it then when I looked back again she was basically grinding on him then he st-started to kiss her..." She says crying harder. "Then we were arguing all night and and he told me that he kissed her because she was young and beautiful and that I wasn't" she says.
"Son of a bitch" Sarah says. "Then h-he told me that he didn't know if he wanted to marry me anymore and he walked out on me" she continues. "Sweetheart you're too good for him, how could he choose someone over you? You are beautiful and don't let anyone make you feel any different okay?" I say trying to comfort her.
After a long talk with Lily she finally begins to calm down. We decide to watch a few films for the rest of the night.
"Okay so first up Grease!" Lily says in an excited voice.
We have put cushions and blankets on the floor to make it comfortable. We have popcorn, ice cream, chocolate and wine. But unlucky for Sarah she can't drink the wine and all she is eating is the chocolate covered crisps.
"Sar can I have one?" I ask. She pulls the bag to her chest and frowns. "They're mine though" she wines. "Sarah you've got four packs in the cupboard" Lily laughs. She huffs. "Finneee" she says and hands me one.