Dark night of the soul

Chapter 15

Sarah's POV
'His weight pinned me down on the cold pavement. I tried to scream, but his hand covered my mouth. I did nothing but lie there whilst he raped me. 'I'm useless' I thought to myself. I can't even save myself from a drunken man. When he finished, he stood up and kicked me several times in the stomach and left me there, curled up on the floor in pain.'
I shot up, my heart was racing, and beads of sweat dripped from my forehead. My cheeks were tear stained, and I was feeling too hot. I just had the worst dream. I sat there in bed, crying silently, so that I didn't wake Jess up. I made my way to the bathroom and took out my razors from the hiding space I found under the bath. I held the shiny object between my fingers, and slid it across my arm. The incision made me feel relief. I carried on slashing, thoughts running through my head.
'It wouldn't matter if I died, no one would care, no one would miss me' I thought to myself.
I silently ran into the bedroom and took a pen and paper into the bathroom and I started to write a letter.
'Jess,
I can't be here anymore, everything has just become too much to handle, there is no life ahead of me. I'm a disappointment, to myself and everyone else. I love you so much Jess, you're the most amazing wife anyone could ask for, and when I'm gone, I want you to move on, don't depress yourself over my absence. If you love me, then I need you to move on. I'm so sorry Jess, I hope you understand, of course you probably won't, no one does, but it's for the best.
All my love
Sarah xxx'
I gently kiss her lips but she doesn't stir. I make my way to the bathroom and I bring the blade down on my wrist, pressing in, then I did the same on the other wrist. Blood poured on the floor, and I began crying harder I lean against the wall, and drop to the floor and bring my knees up to my chest. I feel my eyes become heavy, and it feels like the life is pouring out of me. I'm finally going to be happy...