I can't play pretend
With the ones I love,
Can't risk my happiness
For a game I never chose.
Why fake a smile
When my heart burns with truth?
Why mask the longing
That brings me to my knees?
I've tasted the bitterness
Of doubt and indecision,
The emptiness of wondering
If we're real or just a game.
I've been in that haze,
The fog of maybe-this, maybe-that,
Where every glance feels like a lie
And every word, a shadow.
But I can't live there anymore.
I won't dim my light
To fit into your darkness,
Won't paint my love in grey.
I won't pretend you mean nothing
When your name alone sends sparks
Up my spine,
When missing you feels
Like a wound that never heals.
I'm tired of these mind games,
The silence dance of what ifs,
The endless waiting
For a sign that never comes.
So here I am, cards on the table,
Heart wide open, no mask to wear.
I'll love you fiercely,
Even from a distance,
But I refuse to play a game
I can never win.
If you're in, be all in with me.
No more shadows,
No more masks,
Just the truth of what we feel.
Because if there's even a chance
That you might be it,
Then let's be real.
All cards in,
Or not at all.
—MistakenGenius
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Surviving Heartbreak
PoetryA lover girl who got her heart broken one too many times and now ended up writing poetry about it
