Kickdrum Beating in My Chest Again (Alternate Version)

Chapter 85

!!!!!!!!!!Author's Note!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Everyone! Happy Friday (I know, it's late)! I forgot to proofread this chapter last night, so I had to do it tonight before I posted it. I hope everyone had a good week. Mine was fine and more normal, but I was a day ahead all week. I guess I'm just ready for some time off for Thanksgiving. My son is off from school all of next week, so that means I get to sleep in! I'm also starting to count down the days until my husband and I's trip to Huatolco, Mexico on December 14! I'm so excited! My parents come for Christmas, so our son stays with them while we go somewhere every year. The past few years we've been trying to save money so we've been going places that are closer and staying for less days. This time, we will be gone for a week! We haven't been to an all inclusive place like this in a long time, so it will be nice to have some time away by ourselves. We don't ever get much of a break from our high functioning autistic son because our families live so far away. I know that sounds harsh, but caring for him is a full time job in itself and it can be very hard at times. Christmas is the only time we have family here for long enough to do a trip like this, and I can't wait for this!

This week, Andy tries to wash off what he just witnessed, Andy updates Brendon on everything, Andy admits that this is more than he can handle and decides to contact a therapist, and he spends the rest of his day contacting the families of the prisoners that died from groups one and two. Patrick and Joe discuss what happened during lunch and wonder if Gabe bought it, Patrick shares what he and Brad discussed on their way back to their cell, and Patrick tells Joe that if anyone is going to blow it for them, it will be Brad because he's acting strangely. Brad comes to get Patrick for his private time with Gabe, manages to trigger a flashback of Patrick's attack, tries to snap him out of it, and is successful after many different tries. Then they are thirty minutes late getting to Gabe and he's not happy, Brad tells him about Patrick's flashback, Gabe confronts Patrick about it, and then allows him to sit down for a few minutes prior to beginning the activities Gabe has planned.

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Chapter 85

********Trigger Warning for Gore, Graphic Violence, PTSD, and Rape********

Andy had done exactly what he said he was going to do. As soon as he and Daniel returned to his office, he grabbed his change of clothes and they headed to the staff locker room and lounge, where Andy spent close to an hour scrubbing himself from top to bottom. He'd even washed himself five or six times to get the stench of dead people out of his skin, hair, and nose. He stood under the shower head in the hottest water he could stand, hoping that would help cleanse his body and his mind. It helped with his body, but those images would haunt him forever. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw the state of that room and the conditions of the bodies. By the time Andy felt like a normal human again, it had been close to an hour. He got out, changed his clothes, and then began working on the stench still stuck in his nose. The shower had helped a lot, but there was still a small amount of the smell stuck in his nose, so he grabbed the distilled water out of the fridge in the staff lounge, filled the tea pot up, warmed the water up in the microwave, added a salt packet to the water, and took it over to the sink to use his neti pot several times to get the last of the smell of death out of his nose. After using it five times, he couldn't smell the stench anymore, so he was happy. He sat down for a few minutes before he decided that he had work to do, and he needed to return to his office. Hopefully his vegan hazelnut coffee is there by now, so that he can drink a shit ton of it, wake up, be somewhat productive, and make it through the rest of his day without crashing or falling asleep. He definitely does NOT want to fall asleep. Daniel had also showered and was waiting for him when he walked out of the staff locker room and lounge.