Kickdrum Beating in My Chest Again (Alternate Version)

Chapter 92

!!!!!!!!!!Author's Note!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Everyone! Happy Friday! You get your chapter a bit earlier this week because I'm still sick and can't go to band practice tonight. I can deal with a lot, but the thing that got me was vertigo. It was horrible and made me nauseous. I went to the doctor yesterday and it turned out I had fluid in both ears and it was worse on my right side. That's what was causing the vertigo. They gave me an antibiotic for this secondary infection and some others to help ease my symptoms. I feel better today, so that is good. I hope you all had a better week than I did. I'm just going to give you a heads up. I was proofreading this last night and was having trouble staying awake. I'm pretty sure I caught everything but if I missed something, I'm sorry. We die like Pirates!

This week, Joe reacts to everything Patrick has been through before he ended up in sick bay, Joe helps him shower because he smells like shit, Gabe finalizes his plans for Brad's real punishment and goes to talk to one of the vampires he'd like to use in his plan.

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Chapter 92

********Trigger Warning for Graphic Violence, PTSD, Rape, Torture and Drug Use********

Joe is sitting there in complete abject horror listening to all the things that happened to Patrick within the last few hours. He is absolutely dumbfounded, and it takes some time for him to even absorb everything that Patrick just told him, let alone process all of it. Jesus! How much can one poor man go through the day he is released from sick bay? Apparently, the answer is a plethora of atrocious, vile, and appalling things. Patrick must be a mess! What he went through this morning was bad enough. Then to add a very real and painful flashback, almost being choked to death and having a bad asthma attack, being raped while being forced to participate in his own rape when he can't move, being tortured until he was willing to tell Gabe the truth about what had happened this morning, and having to try to calm an enraged Gabe down from a feral state in which he was ready to attack after he'd told him. If that wasn't enough, he was tortured again to attain information about his whereabouts and being controlled and forced to hold me down while Gabe fed on me, making it incredibly painful for me, to punish him for lying to Gabe about what happened with Brad this morning. Holy Shit! Joe can't imagine how that felt or affected him or even how Patrick is dealing with it. Remember Joe. You need to build him up and keep him fighting no matter what happens. It's about the long game just like Marie said. Even though you are shocked, speechless, stunned, disgusted, and flabbergasted, you must help him get through this, since he can't talk to anyone else about this besides me and Dan. God, I wish that he could've seen Dr. Wesley more regularly because it really would've helped him, but I understand why he chose not to. Patrick can't deal with the guilt if something happened to her because of him. I'll bet Gabe is happy to help make her forget about Patrick's referral because then Patrick won't get the help he needs, which will make him easier to manipulate.

Joe is also incredibly aghast that Gabe had managed to make Patrick believe that this is somehow his fault. Just some of the things that Patrick told him that Gabe had said to him. Things like "your actions have caused me to do this," and "you brought this upon yourself," were classic things an abuser would say. It's the old "look what you made me do." It really bothered Joe that Gabe had found a way to get that through to Patrick. It definitely wasn't a good sign, but there wasn't much Joe could do about it. He knew it would only get worse from here. Joe needed to make it abundantly clear to Patrick that none of this was his fault and he hadn't asked for it or done anything to deserve the torture or punishments that he got.