Kickdrum Beating in My Chest Again (Alternate Version)

Chapter 86

!!!!!!!!!!Author's Note!!!!!!!!!

Hello Everyone! Happy Friday (I know I'm late)! I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving holiday and if you aren't in the USA, then I hope you had a good week. My week was pretty easy. I'm going to Mexico with my husband while our son stays home with Grandma and Grandpa. We will be home before Christmas, but my doctor recommended I get a few vaccines that I was due for, so I did that, and took the rest of the week off because they didn't make me feel the greatest. It's been helpful to catch up on a few things. We had a wonderful Thanksgiving with just the three of us. Today, we put Christmas up in our house and partially outside, which my son really enjoyed. I'm not one that thinks Christmas starts the day after Halloween, which also happens to be my birthday, so we wait until the day after Thanksgiving.

This chapter and the next are going to be rough for poor Patrick. Please pay attention to the trigger warnings and stay safe, everyone.

This week, Patrick takes the break that Gabe gives him and Gabe asks him about it. Patrick tells him about the physical therapy and therapy referrals Spencer gave him and asks Gabe to compel both of them to forget about it, hoping he won't be punished too harshly. Then Gabe wants to move onto their personal time, which Patrick fights back against very hard. Once he drags Patrick back, they have their daily raping, but Gabe decides to punish him in a really horrible, psychologically scarring way. Gabe confronts him about what happened with Brad afterward, knowing they are both lying to him. He asks Patrick to tell him the truth, but he refuses, so Gabe tortures him until he can't take it anymore and tells him everything.

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Chapter 86

********Trigger Warning for Graphic Violence, Torture, PTSD, and Rape *******

Patrick sits against the wall trying to process what just happened. He knows it wasn't real, but it was terrifying, nonetheless. In that moment, he was reliving the attack in real time, not like it was a memory of what had happened. It was so strange. He saw and felt everything happening again exactly as it had the first time around. It felt like his brain had gone somewhere else entirely. Like while the flashback was happening, his brain was experiencing it, but it'd felt more like a hallucination. He remembers walking with Brad, and then waking up on the floor. It was a very strange feeling. Brad said that he'd looked out into space, reacting, and speaking to things and people that weren't there. He'd run back toward his cell, because that's what he'd done to try to get away from Earnesto and his men. Brad said that he'd started apologizing and begged them not to hurt him, followed by his screaming out in horrid pain when they began gangbanging him. In Patrick's head, that is exactly what he did to try and get out of being raped by so many people. His thoughts are interrupted by Gabe sitting down next to him, placing his hand on Patrick's thigh, and snapping his fingers in front of his eyes to get his attention.

"What are you thinking about, Sugar?" Gabe asks.

"I was trying to process and understand everything that had just happened. It was so strange. We were talking and walking and then I woke up on the floor, but during that time in between, I experienced the attack in real time, like it was happening right now, not like seeing it as a memory. It's very hard to explain." Patrick answers.

"I'm sorry that happened to you, Sugar. Do you remember what Brad said to trigger you?" Gabe asks.

"No, but it was like flipping a switch. As soon as he said it, it started back where they were surrounding me and then I took off running to get away from them, but they caught up and grabbed me and I fell to the floor. There were too many of them and I couldn't get free. Can we talk about something else, or do whatever you plan to do? I don't want to think about the attack anymore." Patrick asks.