What It Takes To Believe In Forever

Forever 9

Andrew's POV

(English mostly)

Sh!t.. Sh!t.. Why?!

I don't wanna let go of Lolo yet. Alam ko na he's suffering because he has been fighting for his life for quite a long time.

But, wala akong alam na matinong gawin o isipin. I just don't want him to leave me.

Because it hurts.

I'm a guy, yes.. But, I just can't help but cry.

Its just funny, kung paano ako makapang asar, mas malala pala pag ako ay umiiyak. I cry like a little kid.

Cause when I was 5 years old, my dad died, because of a certain illness. He fought, but didn't survived the operation.

Si Mama, she was always sad. Parang walang kulay yung buhay namin. Since, my mom and dad met sa Canada, I was born there. Only child din ako, so I had nobody to turn to, except Mom.

But, Lolo and Lola visited us.. Even Tito Rey.. Sila lang ang andun for us... for me..

From then on.. I found another dad. At yun si Lolo.. Every time na may bakasyon o may free time kami ni Mama, we would always visit lolo and lola sa States.

Simula nun, si Lolo ang naging Papa ko. He stood by me, and guided me.. Every time we visit them, we would always bond.

Thats why... I dont know what I would do, if I lose him now.

Right now.. Kasama ko si Jenny.. My cousin, anak ni tito Rey. After what I heard and saw kanina sa hospital.. Di ko kaya, so I walked out and stayed at the back of the hospital..

Im going crazy.

"Its life.. People come and go. Pero, tandaan mo. When someone leaves, someone else will come." Then she hugged me..

Yes, I didn't grow up with her. And I know we're not that close as cousins yet, in general. But I'm glad that.... now, I have someone to turn to.

Nagusap lang kami, then suddenly her phone rang..

"Opo.."

"Kasama ko na po."

"Sige Pa.. Babalik na po kami diyan."

Right when she ended the call, she pulled me back in the hospital straight to Lolo's room..

"Jen, ayaw ko.."

She nodded with a smile and said... "Be strong.."

How can she be so positive? Her fighting spirit is admirable.

Pagkapasok namin sa loob, andun si Lola, Riza, Mama, Tito and Tita.

"Wala na si Papa.." Just when I heard my mom said that.. It felt like my world shattered into pieces.

I looked around me, at saw my lola crying.. Mas masakit ito, for her. Even Riza is crying.. Pati si Tita, umiiyak na din..

Tapos si Tito, and Mama, they weren't crying.. But I know for a fact, na they're just holding it in, kase ayaw nilang makita silang umiiyak ni Lola, at baka mas lalong malungkot.

But, I can't help but to notice na wala si Jen.. Alam ko kase na kasama ko siyang bumalik dito, kinaladkad pa niya ako eh.

Uh, where did she go?

***knock***knock***

"Ma'am, Sir, we're just going to bring the patient in the morgue. But you will need to sign some papers.. And the hospital bills. (Blah blah blah)."