The Story Of Us

Chapter 72

The Story Of Us
Chapter 72
Emily's POV

7/12/16

After the visitation, things seemed to get easier. Things slowly seemed to go back to normal or at least somewhat. I forced myself to just let it go. I told myself that I couldn't change what happened no matter how hard I tried. It was going to happen one day. It happens to everyone and that's just a part of life.   His passing taught me an important lesson. Enjoy life today because yesterday is gone and tomorrow is never promised. Since October 6th, I've found a reason to celebrate life each and everyday even if I literally did nothing at all.

As I'm writing this and finishing the journal thing off, I'm sitting in front of Caleb's grave on the cold wet ground. I really wish I could just bring a lawn chair or something with me when I come out here because I usually stay out here for hours. I don't think people would like that though and it's sorta strange. I visit his grave at least once each week, more if I'm just feeling really emotional and upset. Whatever the weather is, you'll find me here writing.

Right now, the sun is starting to peak it's way around the gray rain clouds. I'm sitting in muddy grass which is starting to soak my shorts, but it doesn't matter. I just got done putting actual flowers on his grave. I hate when it's cold out. I love having real flowers out here rather than artificial ones during the winter because the real ones are so much prettier.

I of course still talk to Caleb. Every night I look out my window and tell him things that's happened down here. How Annie now has a boyfriend. Every time I see the two of them around it always reminds me of us. Hayley finally got a bunny after begging for months. Grace and Gavin are still the cheesiest couple ever. Addy still constantly FaceTimes and Snapchats me every second of the day. I'm actually flying down to see her next month. Ethan and I are close again and surprisingly, so is Madison and I. Crazy how things just change, right?

While I write my stories out here, I like to pretend Caleb's sitting right next to me, peering over my shoulder at what I'm writing. I talk to him out loud and laugh. I point out all the stupid things we use to do or how bitchy I use to be. My favorite is bringing up all the embarrassing things that's happened to us. God, those make me cringe. After writing a story down, I read it aloud as if he was listening to me. I know he is up in Heaven laughing his ass off along with me.

It's taken me around 9 months to complete this journal. Just that tells you the amount of shit we did together. I'm glad I actually took the time to write in this. When I'm older and have kids, I want to be able to recall on all the things we did together. I know my brain wasn't going to remember all of this stuff which is why I wrote it all down while it was fresh on my mind. It's got everything from us running around in Halloween costumes, getting screamed at for bringing an expensive camera out in the snow, Ethan moving in next to us, meeting Addy, our first kiss, dealing with Madison and Ethan, going on unforgettable dates, getting sick in hotel rooms, our awful breakup, us of course finding our way back to each other because we were just hopelessly in love with one another, going on road trips with best friends, searching for my E necklace, and screaming to the song Time of Our Lives.

I'm happy I got to do and experience all of those things with Caleb. I honestly wouldn't wanted to have done it with someone else. If I did then my life would've been pretty sucky compared to the life I have now. 

So there you guys have it.

The long, crazy, yet beautiful story of us.

A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed this fanfic! I had a wonderful time writing it. Thank you for all the sweet and kind comments throughout the story. They all mean so much to me! I'm thinking about posting the first chapter to my next fanfic tonight so stay tuned to that. Once again, thank you all for reading and commenting on my fanfic! I love you all so much💗