Changed For The Better

Off out

After finishing my lunch I tied my hair up, got my trainers on and started walking down the road to the park. It's only a five minute walk, but I still had some time to myself. Not like I'm short of that recently.

Despite the fact it's sunny, it's actually kind of cold. Summer is coming to an end, although I guess it never really started to begin with. British weather and all. I was a bit chilly and regretted not bringing a jacket but I'm too lazy to go back now.

It was good to be outside again though. Having been cooped up inside for over twenty four hours was starting to drive me insane, even if I spent most of that time fast asleep.

I wonder what date idea Ryan had. There's not that much to do around here, and there's practically nothing that we haven't done before. He seemed almost proud of it though so I'm excited to see what it is he's thinking of.

I'm also curious to see what they've all been up to these last couple of days. By they I literally just mean Ryan, and maybe Chloe. The others call all bury themselves in mud and eat off the floor with their mouths for all I care.

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I arrived at the park and didn't immediately spot them like I expected myself too. I mean there's loads of them and we hardly blend into the crowd do we? I was looking in the playground but I spotted them in the grass on the field outside the playground.

There were some picnic blankets set up and Mai Lee was happily spread out across one. Next to her sat Kazima who had her nose buried in a book, as per usual. The twins and Floss were near them just off the blanket,I think they were making daisy chains. That's what it looked like anyway.

I could see Joseph and Archie using a magnifying glass in the bushes and holding a big book. They looked to be examining wildlife or something. That's exactly the kind of thing they would do.

Sasha was chilling with Dexter on a bench. They were sharing a set of headphones and banging their heads furiously and pulling some really funny faces. They might have just forgotten that they were in public, or that other people can see them.

Jody and Tyler were a bit further away, and were chasing each other round along with Candi, Chloe and Ryan. It looked like they were playing a really intense game of tag or something. They were all smiling and laughing and were a bit red in the face from running in the sun.

It stung a bit. Seeing Ryan being so happy, with the people that made me so sad while he wasn't here. I've tried telling him what they did to me but it looks like that means nothing to him.

Maybe while I wasn't there, they started filling his head with stories about things that I've done! Fake things I mean. Like poisoning his mind to make me look like the bad guy. When did we end up competing over him? None of them even know about what happened to him while they were living in America.

In fact they hardly know him at all! How can they call themselves his friends when he doesn't trust them enough to tell them anything? And after everything they have done to me, now look at them.

It also kind of sucks that he is so happy when I'm not around him. When he isn't around me, I'm bored and lonely and constantly thinking of him. When he isn't around me, he is having a great time with people that cause me great grief. This just isn't fair.

I contemplated going and joining in their game, but then again going by the previous logic, if I joined in they wells stop having a good time. I would ruin it for them essentially, and then we would end up fighting like always and I would end up in trouble.

Instead I wandered over to the picnic blankets and laid myself down. Kazima didn't even look up from her book, but luckily Mai Lee noticed I was there.