Changed For The Better

Invitation

When we got home we went straight upstairs to our room to chill out. Today was a lot. Like more than I expected and I just need a few moments to just step back and relax.

I sat on my bed, Ryan sat on his and we were both on our phones. Very social I know. It was comfortable silence which is the best thing ever. As far as I know the others are downstairs talking with Tee and Carmen about school. No doubt theyll be rubbing it in that they arent going back yet. Its so unfair.

I dont know what Ryan was doing, but I was looking at guitars on pintrest and feeling sorry for myself, knowing that mine was terrible compared to all these ones.

I was sat peacefully scrolling when I got a text notification, that made both me and Ryan jump.

Is that Harley?he asked. I opened up the message.

Actually, no

Who is it then?

Someone called Molly?

Why is she texting you?

I dont even know who she is I shrugged.

You do, you just dont know her name. Shes in your art I think. Wavy blonde hair, popular

Oh right, yeah I know who you mean

Whats she saying?

I looked back down at the message which read:

M: Hey whats up peeps? So theres this wicked party at mine on Saturday and basically youre gonna be there. Its gonna be wicked

She invited you to a party? Ryan asked in disbelief.

Looks like it. Weird, weve never spoken

That is weird. Why would the most popular girl in school be talking to YOU? No offence

Oh none taken(!)

I didnt mean it like that

Yeah I know. What do I say?

Say youre not going he shrugged.

But why shouldnt I go if I was invited?

Because why should you? Specially if youve never even spoken to her before

Maybe she wants to be friends

Or maybe this is something to do with Harley

Oh come in thats not likely

Really? Because the last time I checked, he was the most popular guy, and shes the most popular girl..

Then you need to update your records. Seriously, Harley has nothing to do with it

There was an awkward phase before he asked so youre gonna go then?

Maybe I said as I replied.

Maybe what?

Well Im only going to go if she agrees to letting you come as well I replied as I sent the message, asking if I could have a plus one. She replied immediately, much to my surprise.

Well?

Looks like were off to a party on Saturday

Great(!)

Oh dont be a spoil sport. It could be brilliant

It could be terrible

Well lets just wait and see

I guess Ryan was right. It is really weird that she was inviting me, and that she agreed to let Ryan come as well. Shes never spoken or paid any attention to either of us, and now were off to a party at her house?

Well, if Luke will let us go. I cant see him having a problem with it, as long as we arent too late back. Plus, we can just tell him that its a great opportunity for us kids to bond with people outside the care home.

There was another pause and silence where we carried on doing our own thing. I feel like Ryan might be a little bit mad at me about making him go on Saturday, but if they invited me there must be a reason so I should go. But theres no way Im going alone. Soon enough, there was a knock at the door.

We both watched as Luke came in. Hey guys. Sorry to interrupt, I know you dont like me coming in your room, but have you made your mind up about any of those families yet Marie?

Oh, yeah no I havent not yet. Anyway forget that. Luke, Ryan and I have been invited to a party on Saturday. Is it cool if we go?

Whose party is it?

Girl called Molly

Is it on until late?

Only like ten I think

Is it nearby?

Yeah its in town

Alright then. Remind me and Ill give you some money for the bus as I wont be able to leave the night shift to pick you up

Cool, thanks Luke

No worried. But I really do need an answer soon about the foster families. If you leave them waiting they sometimes change their mind and look elsewhere

Harsh. Im not like a sandwich or something. Okay. Ill let you know as soon as I can

Thanks Marie. Also dinner is almost ready. Should be fifteen minutes or so

Alright. Thanks Luke

With that he left. Why is he pressuring me about the family thing? I thought it took time and we didnt have to rush things. And when I said I wanted to get fostered, he acted like I was making the wrong decision. Now it seems like he cant wait for me to leave.

He is pretty much doing what Mike used to do. He wants rid of me, so he made me think it was my idea and that I want to do it. He let me convince myself that I wanted to do it. But do I?

Ryan doesn't want me to go I know that much. Mind you I don't think any of the others would care. I bet to them I'm pretty much a human boomerang. Always coming and going. They probably got used to it and don't bother taking me seriously any more.

To be honest, I don't really take myself seriously any more. I don't believe in myself, I can't see any real future for myself or have any idea of what I want to do with my life other than make music. And that isn't exactly a realistic dream is it? Chances of making it in the music industry are slim to none. So why bother?

But then what else could I do? They always say that everyone is full of potential and all of that crap. But really, I'm just that other girl with anxiety. What difference do I make to anyone? What difference can I make on the world?

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A/N

Its short because Im ill and have a headache and looking at the screen hurts. Sorry ily x